Don't usually post here. Am I dissociating

I have been having flash backs and horrible memmories from a couple of tramatic incidents in my past. They were triggered by a medical test that I had. It is to the point that I am positive I need to be hospitalized or at least put on the crisis stabalization unit. I don't feel connected to my body or anyone or anything in my life since this trigger and flood of horrible memmories. I somehow have left my body or something. I am really stressed and have not slept in days. I don't know what dissociation is but A friend said this is what I am doing. How do I get back in touch. A friend told me to go hug a tree.

I am not feeling to well.. so please forgive me if I goof.. and say something that unintentially hurts.. would never want too..but wanted to respond...

First I would say.. if you feel you need to be hospitalized to be safe.. then that is what I would do....

It sounds like what you are going thru is just terrible...the trigger.. and the flood of memories.. and the "leaving" of my body, followed by not sleeping.. I have all of that.. though my DX is DID, PTSD and anxiety and depression... so I am not sure what causes this if it is the DID or the PTSD...
I do know it is very hard to experience..

I would ask if you have a T to help...

And.. "hug a tree"... not sure if your friend meant this as a "grounding" tech.. or what....

For me... when this happens.. I talk to my T - he gives me more than one session a week, call my pdoc to see him, and use self "grounding"... I have meds to sleep.. that is very important.. the less sleep the worse, then from there I develop a routine.. it gets life going again, then such things as watching a favorite familiar movie, cooking, rocking, wrapping up in a blanket, heating pad,, soothing things..

But the more you don't sleep... the more "unreal" you will feel.. like a cycle...

(((((safe hugs))))

((freewill))
I hope you feel well again soon. I am doing a little better today. My friends drug me out of my house. It helped once I got out. Nights are usually worse for me. I am just trying to make it till monday so I can have my T put me on the unit. I don't want to have to go through the ER to get there. Thank you so much for your help. OH, My friend told me to hug the tree because the tree is connected deep into the earth and it grounds her. Thank you again for your help.