Alters anxiety passed through.

I have always had irrational emotional and grief pain attacks. My family never knew but I have cried myself to sleep regularly my whole life because of these attacks. The pain and grief are about my family members and always were. Why I never tried to talk with my Mom or Dad about this goes to my inability to communicate with my family because they did not communicate with me.

But now I realize that the emotions which are overwhelming are not rational at my age and I need to get rid of them somehow.

Recently, I have thought that maybe my alters are having these attacks and the emotions are being passed through to me. That is why I cannot control the emotions and why they are so overbearing.

Anyone have any experiences with this?

What you are describing is something that I have experienced, and still do.

For me, I've understood them to be emotional flashbacks.

Someone shared a quote from a book by Pete Walker in another thread and it spoke much truth to me. He talks about emotional flashbacks and explains them in a way that I can understand.

It gives me hope for healing.

Here's his website.

http://pete-walker.com/

There is a lot of good information there. On the left are links where he describes and talks about different parts of Complex PTSD.

For me, I believe that is what I'm trying to recover from

Also, here is a book, by him, that has been invaluable to me.

Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving: A GUIDE AND MAP FOR RECOVERING FROM CHILDHOOD TRAUMA https://www.amazon.com/dp/1492871842..._vQlJzbZDY3WKX

It has become a reference book for me.

We have an energy that has severe depressive episodes and becomes suicidal. These feelings 'bleed' into one of our other energies, creating havoc, and can't shake the feelings.

I am often impacted by the emotions of others in my system. This happens frequently with not only myself, but with others in my system as well. It can be difficult for me at times to know if it is me feeling something or someone else. Sometimes it is because someone else is close to the surface, so to speak. Other times it is because someone else inside is having a severe emotional moment and I am simply picking up on it.