not being switchy...

Not sure what's up with this, but since the SO left for his mom's house, I haven't switched out or lost time or detached/checked out or anything. I've had some emotions come from inside (and a lot from me as well), but it's been me here the whole time, I think. I mean, I could be losing bits and pieces here and there, but if I am it's nothing big and I'm not aware of it. That's not the norm for me. Normally I flip flop rotate out throughout the day even if things are calm. I don't mind it, but it's just weird. I'm not sure what's up with that. I figured with the stress and change and all that's going on, I would be more switchy/checked out. Stress tends to set me off something fierce. But I'm here and I've been here and present and dealing with the emotions as they come. Oddly enough with all this heartbreak and brutality, I feel more functional than I have in ages.

So I was wondering if anyone here has had this kind of thing happen, something really stressful goes down and you remain present when the norm is to detach and/or switch.

-Avery

I'm sorry I can't help you here, L.P. My stress causes me to switch up frequently and sometimes it's to handle different situations or because my mind can't decide who it wants to be I guess. I hope that someone who's experienced this pops in with an answer for you.

for me this happened as each alter integrated with me, I no longer went through so much switching even though times were still stressful. there was no need for me to switch under stress and change because the one that handled those things was now mashed up (using your term for it) with me. I now had everything with in me to handle the problem myself.

these "mash ups" where you discover you are not switching under your usual triggers and that things have changed, and being more functional then you have been in ages will get easier. I still find times when I am amazed that I am not switching because of this or that, and sometimes it still feels good but weird.

just take it one step at a time

I can often be much calmer when not around other people as I stop switching in response to other's needs and only switch according to my own internal triggers. This is probably why I don't have a partner or friends!
But it isn't always like that. There are plenty of times when i am alone and triggered as all get out and switch like crazy anyway. But for me, being alone is definitely LESS switchy than being around other people because we don't have to accommodate interpersonal needs, just our own.

Thanks for the replies everybody. It is appreciated. You both dropped some perspective on my plate and gave me some stuff to chew on. I had not considered either idea as what might be happening. Mostly I have been bracing for some kind of impact. I tend to expect stuff to go horribly wrong when things get calm and quiet, like the calm before the storm, you know? Your comments help make me feel better about this and have helped steer my thoughts away from the utmost negative to something more balanced and realistic. Ya'll rock.
Thanks again

-Avery