[MtnTime2896]

So, I have this problem with my hands. It's not all of the time but it happens frequently enough for it to be a problem.

I keep my hands away from my face as much as possible, even then they scare me, so I try to ignore their presence. I'm terrified of my hands when I'm like this because they aren't my hands. If I allow them to come close to my face,

Possible trigger:

I'm terrified that they will grab at my throat and strangle me or gauge out my eyes.

They aren't my hands, they're the hands of something evil and sinister. How I feel about my hands being evil is sort of the same gut-wrenching feeling I get when I suddenly believe that me as a whole is evil. I don't know which is worse.

My therapist believes I have DID. So, I'm just curious if this is common for people who have DID or if I'm just entirely off my rocker at this point.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

So, I have this problem with my hands. It's not all of the time but it happens frequently enough for it to be a problem.

I keep my hands away from my face as much as possible, even then they scare me, so I try to ignore their presence. I'm terrified of my hands when I'm like this because they aren't my hands. If I allow them to come close to my face,

Possible trigger:

I'm terrified that they will grab at my throat and strangle me or gauge out my eyes.

They aren't my hands, they're the hands of something evil and sinister. How I feel about my hands being evil is sort of the same gut-wrenching feeling I get when I suddenly believe that me as a whole is evil. I don't know which is worse.

My therapist believes I have DID. So, I'm just curious if this is common for people who have DID or if I'm just entirely off my rocker at this point.

I have never had this happen with my DID but did because of medication and a concussion where the two sides of my brain were not working together. with me a change in meds and healing of the concussion fixed the problem in me. in me it was called alien hand syndrome / medication and concussion induced psychosis.

one of my relatives had it happen they are diagnosed with alzheimers. their doctor called this symptom in them ...Alien Hand Syndrome.

short version it means because of physical health problems a person feels like their hands are not their own and out to harm them, do things out of their control.

to find out what what in you and how to control it in you, you will need to talk with your treatment providers....

here is a link https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alien_hand_syndrome

[Amyjay]

I have had a few moments where a part of my body has been dissociated from my conscious control and other parts of me had control instead. Not often but it has happened. Can you ask internally if part of you knows something about it? Sometimes that helps me.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by Amyjay

I have had a few moments where a part of my body has been dissociated from my conscious control and other parts of me had control instead. Not often but it has happened. Can you ask internally if part of you knows something about it? Sometimes that helps me.

I'll try that. Thank you.

[dlantern]

Had someone just seen a movie, is this a memory/preference surface? Is the other hands just wanting to share it watches movies of this nature?

[MtnTime2896]

Well, I confided to my T about this. While DID is still a little uncertain, apparently he also believes I have schizophrenia. He's a little more uncertain about DID, now.

Thanks for responding everyone. I appreciate it.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Well, I confided to my T about this. While DID is still a little uncertain, apparently he also believes I have schizophrenia. He's a little more uncertain about DID, now.

Thanks for responding everyone. I appreciate it.

in another thread on this I read you were confused. I know the feeling. As diagnostics change and as treatment providers learn more and more about mental illness my diagnosis's would be in limbo and updated and lead to confusions too.

I have discovered its not the end of the world to discover what I and past treatment providers thought was one mental disorder is now here in present times and present diagnosis standards something else, ....some... of
what I and my past treatment providers thought was dissociative problems are now diagnosed as being things like bipolar disorder, psychosis, medication side effects.

the good part of having diagnosis changes in me, is that what used to not be treated with medications now are treated with medications. Now those problems that used to be left untreated in me are getting treated. why were they left untreated years ago.... because by past standards and mental health beliefs, they fell into dissociation and the going thing back then with treatment providers was meds dont work with dissociative problems. But with todays diagnostics and standards that have moved those problems from being dissociation to being called other things, it opened the door for meds, which got the problems under control....

my point now that your doctor feels this problem with feeling like your hands are acting on their own and feel like your hands are evil is schizophrenia not DID symptom, they can now get you treated for it.

I am glad you talked with your treatment provider.

[MtnTime2896]

Thanks amandalouise. That helped me feel a little better about this.

[Loose Screw x 2]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

So, I have this problem with my hands. It's not all of the time but it happens frequently enough for it to be a problem.

I keep my hands away from my face as much as possible, even then they scare me, so I try to ignore their presence. I'm terrified of my hands when I'm like this because they aren't my hands. If I allow them to come close to my face,

Possible trigger:

I'm terrified that they will grab at my throat and strangle me or gauge out my eyes.

They aren't my hands, they're the hands of something evil and sinister. How I feel about my hands being evil is sort of the same gut-wrenching feeling I get when I suddenly believe that me as a whole is evil. I don't know which is worse.

My therapist believes I have DID. So, I'm just curious if this is common for people who have DID or if I'm just entirely off my rocker at this point.

I have this too. I've learned to get control of it in time but, it still feels that it's there.

Possible trigger:

I used to get out a Bible and place my hands between the pages and close it to destroy the evil or to chase it away but, eventually the feeling would always come back.

I also feel sometimes like hurting myself in some of the way you describe and have to remind myself of how irrational that is and how that part of my body is irreplaceable and why I need to keep it intact.

Possible trigger:

I do sometimes feel that my right hand is evil and that if I ever loose it that it will have to be replaced with some kind of blade.

I also have an alternate who is very dark but, am uncertain if this is connected with him.
It may also be connected with OCD and stress or a phobia. Hard to say. I'm just speculating. Your therapist (or doctor if you have one) should definitely be taking this seriously.