I am in almost unbearable pain... and it has been pointed out to me that my pain is causing all of you terrible pain..

I did do everything that was requested of me.. I put a trigger icon on... put a triggering.. in the body..

I don't know what more I could have done to protect you all..

So there you have it... folks.. IRL... no one wants to hear my "uglies"..

I thought that you would be happy for me that I have made progress..

It has come at extreme expense to me.. I see a T 2 times a week.. a pdoc once a month.. and a body work specialist every week... lets say.. I have no money left...and my body and soul hurt..

I love you all... I will keep my "uglies" to myself..

And this forum.. can go back.. to whatever it was...

My T... answered my call back... because I was so very upset by all that went on in this forum... and he will see me first thing in the morning.. Yazza.. 3 times this week...

[(JD)]

I'm sorry you are hurt. I'm glad your T cares for you very much and called back and will see you again tomorrow morning. ((((safe hugs))))

I hope you reconsider posting your "uglies" as some members were progressing with them, I think. But whatever you decide, in your own best interest, do.

[[[[[freewill ]]]]]]]]

uglies are part of healing, and im listening

[heyjoe]

Freewill i dont know what happened but you say whatever you need to say, the ones who are criticizing you are the ones with the problem. Dont let anyone drive you out of someplace that you want or need to be. You just keep on saying what needs saying.

[sabby]

((((((((((( freewill )))))))))))))

I agree with heyjoe....please don't let this stop you from progressing and sharing your story, your feelings, your memories and most importantly your healing.

You did everything the right way.....and I have much respect for you and how hard you are working to grow and live the best life you can.

I will always listen to anything you have to say freewill. And there are many out there who will do the same thing. You are loved and appreciated!

xoxoxo
Jean

(((((((((freewill))))))))

please stay. you are helping me in my healing and so many too, love you don't go please

jinnyann

I am wishing for your healing and hope that you will work on it no matter what.

I personally don't think it's fair for anyone to tell another to "hush" about what they are going through--- wow! that shouldn't even happen in a support forum.
Too many of us were told that very thing as children. I'm so sorry you've experienced such I guess some just don't understand.

I'm here and will support you any way I can-- I may not read all, because of my own upset, but those are my own issues and not your fault or anyone else here.

Please, work on healing in the way that works for you.
freewill-

mandy

[Kiya]

I agree with everyone that posted - and with what mandy said - if people have a problem for something they need to take responsibility for them selves. If something has a trigger warning or something i can't read, then I have the responsibility to put it away. No one forces another to read anything in here.

Way to speak up!!! Keep on going, free - we're here.

[nothemama8]

freewill, as with life we have uglies, healing comes only with getting the uglies out, please feel safe here
Angie

[Zorah]

as we said ((((((((((freewill)))))))))) we couldn't dare to read the posts with the trigger icons, coz we are so messed up our selves atm.

if ppl read past that trigger icon, they should know they do it at their own risk, our angries post sometimes, we can't always stop them

Please don't stop posting to DD

Thank you all.... for your Love.. and Support..

we just got back from our T... we had to call him last night.. and he took us right in..

I love you all.. I keep saying it... I love you all...

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Freewill}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} My precious friend, sounds to me like you did everything that was called for. If someone decided to read beyond the trigger warning, then that is their problem. Somewhere along the line, we need to take responsibility for our own actions. This person(s) needs to learn to do that.

All the responses you've gotten shows you that most everyone is still willing to listen to you and to support you. You know that I am, although I don't know that much about DID. You know I do the best I can to understand and to find that place for you that you need. I do my best to honor your boundaries, Sweety. Please don't pull back!

I'm still here for you and I always will!

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( freewill ))))))))))))))))


love,
Fuzzy

[RACEKA]

I still want to hear what you have to say. You help me more than you know. I can really relate to you. Keep on posting. Keep on healing.

I love you and support you.

[allthegirls6]

If there is a problem freewill you would do better to say it as it is rather than accuse this forum of being unsupportive or whatever it is you are saying here.

I saw all the posts and I know what went on with this, however it seems to me that you have a problem with one person and NOT the people on this forum. We do not need to "go back to whatever we were" Im scunnered with this whole thing.

As for who can post, surely you must know ythat you can post anywhere you want!

[pachyderm]

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...it has been pointed out to me that my pain is causing all of you terrible pain.

I thought that you would be happy for me that I have made progress..

I will keep my "uglies" to myself.

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You did not cause me any pain. I AM happy for your progress -- just envious. And DON'T keep it to yourself.

[Zorah]

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If there is a problem freewill you would do better to say it as it is rather than accuse this forum of being unsupportive or whatever it is you are saying here

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we couldn't agree more !!!!!