[Chez3]

My thoughts are... strange. I don't have entirely separate identities, but my thoughts are divided. I see them as different beings in my head, although, it is like writing a character in a story; you shift your mindset to be as though you are that character, but you know that you're you, and not that character. I have three of these... entities. Me, Zekk, and Chell. I know that I am me, but they act as though they aren't me and it's confusing. I am just wondering whether or not this is dissociation, or just me fooling myself and becoming too invested in my own stories.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Chez3

My thoughts are... strange. I don't have entirely separate identities, but my thoughts are divided. I see them as different beings in my head, although, it is like writing a character in a story; you shift your mindset to be as though you are that character, but you know that you're you, and not that character. I have three of these... entities. Me, Zekk, and Chell. I know that I am me, but they act as though they aren't me and it's confusing. I am just wondering whether or not this is dissociation, or just me fooling myself and becoming too invested in my own stories.

I cant tell you what this is in you, only your own doctors can do that. you are new and one of the things I do when I encounter new people is point them in the direction of the disclaimer at the bottom of the page..

to me that disclaimer means no one here can tell you what is going on in you. and this site isnt supposed to be a substitute for actually seeing a treatment provider (doctors, therapists, psychiatrists.....) in your off the computer location.

what we do here is share a bit about our problems, what our own treatment providers are helping us with and sometimes others here will reply if they have something in common with the post or have a suggestion that has helped their self that may help others with the same problem. but we dont tell each other what is going on in each other (make diagnosis) or tell each other what to do.

What I can do is tell you I had a couple in my mind that were like you described. ......in me.... my treatment providers said they were not alters with my dissociative problems. .......in me...... my treatment providers called
them imaginary friends and psychosis induced identities both of which knocked them out of the running for being part of my dissociative alters because of diagnostic criteria my treatment providers use.

my suggestion is if this continues to bother you and if you want to know what this is in you, contact a mental health treatment provider (therapist, psychiatrist, psychologist....) or your medical doctor. they can diagnose what this is in you and how to best treat it.

Sorry sweety, I couldn’t tell ya.

Dissociation is more a state of mental escape from the present when I get triggered, my mind goes blank and I then go into a daze, much like day dreaming. An alter might or may then take over and resume body functions.

At least in my case, when alters take over, most everything I just was and memories disappears and the new takes over with their ideas and thoughts.

They don’t feel like characters, but more like real entities within this body with me. We communicate mentally or vocally like 2 different people would.

I hope in your case that this isn't so...it’s worst then anyone can imagine. I rather have schizophrenia...at least there is a pill for it.

Good luck.