[elevatedsoul]

Is it possible to have a dull operator of body and be influenced by thousands other and seem normal?

Need make this better... wish i see therapist soon....

[Amyjay]

I don't know for sure. I do know most "hosts" are repressed , depressed, depleted individuals. A lot of the emotional stuff is being held by other alters.
Yes it is possible to have many many alters, some people call it polyfragmentation, which just means the psyche split into a very large number of alters.
Yes, it is possible to appear mostly normal, I have DID and to my colleagues I mostly come across as reasonably normal, they really wouldn't have any idea I have such serious psychological issues. They have no idea at all that the person who mostly stays glued together in the work place (mostly) dissolves into a dissociative mess the second she walks out the door in the evening.
My pain is hidden. Primarily from myself, but definitely from everyone else too.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

Is it possible to have a dull operator of body and be influenced by thousands other and seem normal?

Need make this better... wish i see therapist soon....

not sure but I think you may have asked this before......

I cant answer to whether this is possible in you, only you can answer whether its possible for you to have alters that do not show any emotions or reactions (or as you call it dull operator of body)

in .......me...... yes I had alters that had what my treatment providers called lack of affect....(unable to show and express emotions)

in me...... they did not appear to be normal. normal people show when they are happy by smiling or laughing, and show when they are sad by a sad face, or upset or excited.

in me... my alters that had no emotions could not be influenced by any of my alters alters because their sense of agency was to be emotionless, to feel and react to nothing. go through the abuses without crying , screaming or feeling any sensations at all and not show any sensations emotions, reactions at all.

on the other hand when I was in a room with someone else who was smoking weed I and some of my alters felt emotionless/ numb/ unable to express what we were feeling not due to the dissociation but a side effect of the weed, and another alter was able to talk the alter through finding the exit and get out into the fresh air.

another time I got drunk as a skunk as they say here where I am and I felt numb/ emotionless not because of my dissociation but a side effect of drinking. An alter was able to talk the one in control into leaving the party.

I frequently feel emotionless/ numb from my medications. before i was integrated my alters would help me get through it. thats what they were there for, to help me handle anything that I was unable to handle on my own.

my dissociation protected me from harm, not cause me harm. they were there to ensure I survived the extreme trauma's I went though. when they discovered something was causing me or the others a problem they stopped doing what ever it was that was causing the problem.

again I cant tell you if you have thousands of alters and whether they are influencing your behaviors while another one is being numb, emotionless or in your words dull. only you and your treatment providers can answer that.

my suggestion is call your therapist or psychiatrist or other mental health person and let them know what is going on. they will be able to diagnose what this is in you.

I see our body as an empty shell that is conscious and all the alters are the filling that give us individual personalities as they take turn fronting. More than one alter is on hand to influence, give their opinion, or take over when need be. We all share the conscious, so the light seems to never go out even though the memories come and go with the alter that has them.

Do we seem normal? Apparently not with all the giggles, snickers and stares. Oh well, we still manage to live another day.

[RubyRae]

Hey ES.

Is there another therapist you can see until yours returns?

[Michael W. Harris]

Now this is just an opinion but it is based on some little knowledge of hypnosis. When a toddler is traumatized severely, and this can be psychologically, aka emotionally, or physically, the toddler will go into shock. That state of shock is exactly the same as a state of hypnosis. All the things that hypnotists have witnessed while having someone under hypnosis, are possible with dissociative disorders. Just like a hypnotist can age regress someone under deep hypnosis, people with dissociative disorders can be any age when they switch back into that state of shock. I personally believe that there are only two states of mind involved with dissociative disorders. One is the normal conscious state and the other is a hypnotic state. In that hypnotic state there can be a different personality involved every time the person is triggered into the hypnotic state, aka triggered back into the state of shock that occurred during the toddler years. That is what I think.

[Fuzzybear]

I’m not sure..

A “treatment” provider accused me of having “lack of affect”

(But there are massive gaps in my memories of his “help”. I haven’t been accused by many of “lack of affect” )

[dlantern]

Play a game a lot of mine can be dull dingyish you have to loosen them up. If just isn't possible then make sure you trance them out or generally avoid them

[elevatedsoul]

I am in many trances... i am becoming really much worse at managing it... or maybe i am going through too mych, but past the point of no return.. with no other solution but to go further, i messed up and now im breaking my mind and i cant stop it because it domino and doing it on its own..

Division increasing...

Im not smoking much weed anymore because im at this job 10 hours... not drinking.. i just sleep... and wake up and work and sleep.. but im getting too tired and dont think i can keep on like this... the job is not too hard but become very hard to me because i have to count and exert lotta physical energy and i just cant focus at all.. i dont want have an accident and hurt or kill someone or myself like that at work..

Pdoc thursday.. my T call today and shes back and ok and made appointment for monday... i dont know how to make this ok or explainable to the boss, he been ok so far with pdoc app but they are like every 4 months .. T be every 2 weeks i dunno what to say

I bought a car.. and now i have to pass driver test i have learners permit.. but i havnt been driving anything but forklift and bobcat at work...

My trance feeling gets bad when im trying to drive...
My reaction speed is not good... im delayed lol...

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

I am in many trances... i am becoming really much worse at managing it... or maybe i am going through too mych, but past the point of no return.. with no other solution but to go further, i messed up and now im breaking my mind and i cant stop it because it domino and doing it on its own..

Division increasing...

Im not smoking much weed anymore because im at this job 10 hours... not drinking.. i just sleep... and wake up and work and sleep.. but im getting too tired and dont think i can keep on like this... the job is not too hard but become very hard to me because i have to count and exert lotta physical energy and i just cant focus at all.. i dont want have an accident and hurt or kill someone or myself like that at work..

Pdoc thursday.. my T call today and shes back and ok and made appointment for monday... i dont know how to make this ok or explainable to the boss, he been ok so far with pdoc app but they are like every 4 months .. T be every 2 weeks i dunno what to say

I bought a car.. and now i have to pass driver test i have learners permit.. but i havnt been driving anything but forklift and bobcat at work...

My trance feeling gets bad when im trying to drive...
My reaction speed is not good... im delayed lol...

I get ya. I drive very slow like letting everyone elseone pass me up for safety sake.