trying to heal after system shut down **trigger**

The subject of this post is exactly how I feel and what I feel I need to do. I have been very much rather shut down, my entire system just gone for months. Well since I was assaulted in May everything at first was completely shut down, every single thing in my life. But now I am at the point that I am at least a little more back on my feet. Though I do need support and reassurance that I will be ok.

I have been having a hard time lately with some parts again. Well they just have been around more in the last few weeks or so. Especially the last few days. I have been switching more again, but not to the extreme as it was before.

Do any of you know is it possible that a new part may have been created from the assault that took place in may?
There seems to be a new part and my T and I are thinking that she came about during what happened in May, which I don't exactly remember it happening, so it does make sense somewhat.

Well the other issue I am having, which relates to that is she has been coming out the last few days. Now I am going to have to break up with my boyfriend, I mean there were issues before but this thing with her has made it so there is no possibility for me to even be in a relationship at this point in time. See she thinks it's supposed to hurt, that's the problem, and that combined with my inability to keep boundaries at this point in time, makes it a bad combination. Well see I have this belief that I deserve to be hurt and that I can't say no. I am going to be working on these things in therapy but just wanted to share.

Thank you to all who read this and hugs to all who want one and/or need one.

Jennifer

I am glad you have the support in your t. It sounds like you are actively working on understanding and embracing your new found alter. It is encouraging that you are willing to welcome her and understand her. I look forward to seeing you grow and thrive.

BB

I had a new part appear after an emotional event a few years ago as well. I do think it is possible your new one could have come from that event.

Hope you're doing well. Kiya

yes, I believe that it is possible for a new alter to occur die to a stressful event in your life...

I have also in the recent couple of weeks.. found a couple of alters that have been there.. but not around...

(((hugs)))

Anytime you have extreme stress, it can upset the system. This is normal, though not enjoyable at all, I'm sure. You will be ok... because this is the way you have survived, this is the way you cope, this IS your safety system. That you are more aware of how it works or what is happening, that must make it feel scary, but it's ok.

Jennifer,

Read your post and understand better why you feel you need to breakup with your boyfriend. you didn't mention your alters on the phone nor how many you have.

Hope you called the hospital and receive help. All of us are here for you and cherish you.

You have made a major impression on me so much that I want to get you and take you away from the danger to here where you would be safe.

I love you lots little sister. PM me or email me at bearslide4@aol.com anytime. you also have my phone number. Contact me anytime to talk.

Hugs and Love,
Sherri (Peacemaker)

My therapist said it was fragments that come along later in life as opposed to new alters. I wish you luck in dealing with and healing from this *hugs*