[MtnTime2896]

Whenever anything around me changes, the routine, the environment or the people around me... whenever changes occur my mind immediately wages war on me. The slightlest change and I'm being told that nothing's real (by the voice in my head, which I know can't be real but they are real and I can't explain that). Like now, my friends got back together and are so happy, and I'm happy for them, but is it actually happening? The voice in my head tells me they're dead and have been for some time. And me, I made all this up to deal with it. And the only way I can return to reality is if

Possible trigger:

I kill myself.

I don't why this happens. I do know I'm having a hard time believing one is real over the other. I hate this.

[MickeyCheeky]

It must be terrible. Please, be safe.. we don't want to lose you.

[EternalLifeinTrinit]

Hi. Ive been having the same issues! Ive recently discovered a recurring pattern in everything i read, watch, hear.. Its hard to explain. You should look up "spiritual awakenings" and do a little soul-searching. Just dont give up! Ask God, (or if you're not of a particular religion) ask the Universe for guidance! If you ask or pray for help understanding your purpose here in this world, you will find answers!! Try to look into your heart and deep down. Have you experienced trauma in your life recently or have you had moments of awareness like you see the bigger picture or suddenly realize more about certain times throughout your life? I hope to hear back from you, I dont know if I should go in for a 72 hr hold or if theres more to this than mental illness..

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by EternalLifeinTrinit

Hi. Ive been having the same issues! Ive recently discovered a recurring pattern in everything i read, watch, hear.. Its hard to explain. You should look up "spiritual awakenings" and do a little soul-searching. Just dont give up! Ask God, (or if you're not of a particular religion) ask the Universe for guidance! If you ask or pray for help understanding your purpose here in this world, you will find answers!! Try to look into your heart and deep down. Have you experienced trauma in your life recently or have you had moments of awareness like you see the bigger picture or suddenly realize more about certain times throughout your life? I hope to hear back from you, I dont know if I should go in for a 72 hr hold or if theres more to this than mental illness..

Yeah, I've had trauma, not recently though. I can't tell you if I come up with realizations or not. I'm so confused sometimes that I just don't know. I'd recommend you talk with your doctor about it. What kind of realizations are you having?

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Whenever anything around me changes, the routine, the environment or the people around me... whenever changes occur my mind immediately wages war on me. The slightlest change and I'm being told that nothing's real (by the voice in my head, which I know can't be real but they are real and I can't explain that). Like now, my friends got back together and are so happy, and I'm happy for them, but is it actually happening? The voice in my head tells me they're dead and have been for some time. And me, I made all this up to deal with it. And the only way I can return to reality is if

Possible trigger:

I kill myself.

I don't why this happens. I do know I'm having a hard time believing one is real over the other. I hate this.

I say believe your eyes....but I can feel you about the negative voicings....

When a part is spewing b.s.....I usually tell the voice to shut up....and it does.

[dlantern]

I'd just refer to what you might have already investigated replying in our environment by the alter to increase communication and file things away.

It could be referring to friends in the movie or some other association especially if death is theme. At the very least it may make you know that being friendly can be helpful