I think we have a baby alter, because at the height of our very adult problem about what to do or behave...a very childlike without a care took over. We stared at objects and looked at every detail absorbing what we were seeing with no mental thought but my own in a small voice kind of way.

There was no response to talk. We was wide eyed and googly happy...much like a baby would be. It was like looking at things for the first time through new eyes.

This may have been a triggered response to our very confused adult thinking.

Has anyone baby alters?

Never mind the goo gaga that was said in head...or did I imagine this?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I think we have a baby alter, because at the height of our very adult problem about what to do or behave...a very childlike without a care took over. We stared at objects and looked at every detail absorbing what we were seeing with no mental thought but my own in a small voice kind of way.

There was no response to talk. We was wide eyed and googly happy...much like a baby would be. It was like looking at things for the first time through new eyes.

This may have been a triggered response to our very confused adult thinking.

Has anyone baby alters?

I see in your signature you have OSDD listed. by any chance when you got diagnosed did they say your other specified dissociative disorder was something called Transient Stupor?

reason I asked is because I remember a while ago you talking about this same thing happening where you feel small and stare and not respond. and if I am remembering right before you said it was like being in a daze or mini dazes. Transient Stupor is one of the OSDD mental disorders. so when I saw you have OSDD listed in your signature your post made sense to me in this regard.

the good news is if you have OSDD the problems associated with it goes away after a few days to a month. in the line of dissociative disorders OSDD is the one that is least severe and easiest to manage because the problems go away usually on their own or with medication with in a month max.

my suggestion is contact yours or a treatment provider. they will be able to tell you whether this is part of your OSDD or if you need your diagnosis upgraded to DID or if medication will help you.

we have 3

[Amyjay]

Yes, I have at least one baby alter. I am not very aware of this alter at all, I more just "know of it" than anything else. I have co-experienced looking through the eyes of a very young part, but they had language so not a baby. It was pretty freaky to experience that very young perspective and understanding!

Originally Posted by Amyjay

Yes, I have at least one baby alter. I am not very aware of this alter at all, I more just "know of it" than anything else. I have co-experienced looking through the eyes of a very young part, but they had language so not a baby. It was pretty freaky to experience that very young perspective and understanding!

It was a great escape away from all adult stress and cares which was the big trigger, everything looked so fresh and new and felt real warm. I was a happy baby, lol.

Images and detail were very sharp and eye catching- had a sense of awe and wonder. I could sense it didn’t know how to talk yet.

Originally Posted by amandalouise

I see in your signature you have OSDD listed. by any chance when you got diagnosed did they say your other specified dissociative disorder was something called Transient Stupor?

reason I asked is because I remember a while ago you talking about this same thing happening where you feel small and stare and not respond. and if I am remembering right before you said it was like being in a daze or mini dazes. Transient Stupor is one of the OSDD mental disorders. so when I saw you have OSDD listed in your signature your post made sense to me in this regard.

the good news is if you have OSDD the problems associated with it goes away after a few days to a month. in the line of dissociative disorders OSDD is the one that is least severe and easiest to manage because the problems go away usually on their own or with medication with in a month max.

my suggestion is contact yours or a treatment provider. they will be able to tell you whether this is part of your OSDD or if you need your diagnosis upgraded to DID or if medication will help you.

Oh, I’m very DID- but not on paper, so as to not offend anyone (silly me)... I just lumped a group of letters together to not be declaring something- I let you all be the judge...I’m just here to relate, vent, and gain insight through the experiences of others like myself.

If I was OSDD (I’d rather be)...I would have a greater sense of self over this sense of no control, missing memories, time jumps, alters taking over ruining my version of life.

I have all kinds of Dissociative events...I’m so prone to dissociation....mini dissociation might be a wrong way to describe it...more like dissociative events that I catch myself entering and to try snapping (grounding) out of- mini being a time limit, before I get lost in the daze and hurt myself. Keep in mind...a lot of it is tied in to constant non-stop flashbacks, sometimes one right after another, which distracts me outwardly like reliving the thought, everytime a part steps forward to say something (like all the time), everything is a trigger....it is a constant moment to moment battle to stay focused and present with this mental barrage of triggered Dissociative events. It’s a wonder that I can function- good enough to hold a job is about all that matters.

This has been a lifelong ordeal...and I wish it would just go away. :/

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Oh, I’m very DID- but not on paper, so as to not offend anyone (silly me)... I just lumped a group of letters together to not be declaring something- I let you all be the judge...I’m just here to relate, vent, and gain insight through the experiences of others like myself.

If I was OSDD (I’d rather be)...I would have a greater sense of self over this sense of no control, missing memories, time jumps, alters taking over ruining my version of life.

I have all kinds of Dissociative events...I’m so prone to dissociation....mini dissociation might be a wrong way to describe it...more like dissociative events that I catch myself entering and to try snapping (grounding) out of- mini being a time limit, before I get lost in the daze and hurt myself. Keep in mind...a lot of it is tied in to constant non-stop flashbacks, sometimes one right after another, which distracts me outwardly like reliving the thought, everytime a part steps forward to say something (like all the time), everything is a trigger....it is a constant moment to moment battle to stay focused and present with this mental barrage of triggered Dissociative events. It’s a wonder that I can function- good enough to hold a job is about all that matters.

This has been a lifelong ordeal...and I wish it would just go away. :/

Alwayschanging I think your jury delivered its "verdict"! (Was there ever any doubt? I think it is plainly obvious you are as DID as DID can be!)

Dissociative Identity Disorder Signs, Symptoms and DSM 5 diagnostic criteria

A. Disruption of identity characterized by two or more distinct personality states, which may be described in some cultures as an experience of possession. The disruption of marked discontinuity in sense of self and sense of agency, accompanied by related alterations in affect, behavior, consciousness, memory, perception, cognition, and/or sensory-motor functioning. These signs and symptoms may be observed by others or reported by the individual.

B. Recurrent gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information, and/or traumatic events that are inconsistent with ordinary forgetting.

C. The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

D. The disturbance is not a normal part of a broadly accepted cultural or religious practice. Note: In children, the symptoms are not better explained by imaginary playmates or other fantasy play.

E. The symptoms are not attributable to the physiological effects of a substance (e.g., blackouts or chaotic behavior during alcohol intoxication) or another medical condition (e.g., complex partial seizures).

[Laurel1562]

I most definitely have a baby alter (aka part). She first came out when my father, who abused my as an infant and toddler and left when I was one and a half, came back into my life when I was in my thirties. My husband was silhouetted in the bedroom door and instantly I was a baby and I couldn't talk--all I could do was cry--and he came in and was able to comfort me. Since then "Baby" comes out when I feel very threatened--usually by someone's anger. I have no amnesia and I have no control.

I used to think this was regression, but I now know this is actually a part (my T concurs!

I also have a toddler part and several child parts.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Oh, I’m very DID- but not on paper, so as to not offend anyone (silly me)... I just lumped a group of letters together to not be declaring something- I let you all be the judge...I’m just here to relate, vent, and gain insight through the experiences of others like myself.

If I was OSDD (I’d rather be)...I would have a greater sense of self over this sense of no control, missing memories, time jumps, alters taking over ruining my version of life.

I have all kinds of Dissociative events...I’m so prone to dissociation....mini dissociation might be a wrong way to describe it...more like dissociative events that I catch myself entering and to try snapping (grounding) out of- mini being a time limit, before I get lost in the daze and hurt myself. Keep in mind...a lot of it is tied in to constant non-stop flashbacks, sometimes one right after another, which distracts me outwardly like reliving the thought, everytime a part steps forward to say something (like all the time), everything is a trigger....it is a constant moment to moment battle to stay focused and present with this mental barrage of triggered Dissociative events. It’s a wonder that I can function- good enough to hold a job is about all that matters.

This has been a lifelong ordeal...and I wish it would just go away. :/

thank you for explaining. so the letters in your signature is saying you have a wide range of dissociative disorders from the most severe (DID) to the least severe (OSDD) so that your insiders wont get upset over the DID label that you have. I love the way that you and your system established a compromise on some not wanting the DID label. thats a great way to do it. again thanks for explaining.

Yeah, well...some are still in denial...but another Other will rearrange our signature to how they think it should be or look like. It’s always changing.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

I think we have a baby alter, because at the height of our very adult problem about what to do or behave...a very childlike without a care took over. We stared at objects and looked at every detail absorbing what we were seeing with no mental thought but my own in a small voice kind of way.

There was no response to talk. We was wide eyed and googly happy...much like a baby would be. It was like looking at things for the first time through new eyes.

This may have been a triggered response to our very confused adult thinking.

Has anyone baby alters?

no but we have a toddler who is 4

her name's kirsty

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

It was a great escape away from all adult stress and cares which was the big trigger, everything looked so fresh and new and felt real warm. I was a happy baby, lol.

Images and detail were very sharp and eye catching- had a sense of awe and wonder. I could sense it didn’t know how to talk yet.

I never had a baby alter but I had similar experiences with a very young one where there was no adult stress and cares and everything was sunshine and roses and I felt completely happy and carefree.I would be lying if I said I didn't miss being able to escape in that way now that I am fully integrated.