My DP went crazy

Since my mom passed away almost 4 years ago we've had her house. I became depressed, more anxious and unable to begin life. My depersonalization and anxiety are so bad I have an anxiety attack just about every night. I only sleep a few hours and have nightmares. Has anyone been like this after the death of someone close?

It's hard to live this way.

I have nightmares and panic attacks because of my PTSD, but I have never had anyone close to me die. Those symptoms are hard to live with. Do you have a therapist or counselor or are you getting any other treatment for them?

I was prepared for my parents to die. My Dad had quadruple by-pass surgery around 1985. He lived to be 63 and died in 1993. I was prepared. He was miserable. My Mom lived to be 90 and died in 2010. I was prepared.

I never got to talk to my Dad about MPD/DID. I did get to tell him I had it one month before he died. But at that time I did not have the knowledge to talk to him about it. We were always estranged. I would have liked to explain his wife's behavior. Mom also was dissociative. Maybe not full DID/MPD but she did have a dissociative disorder. He knew she was mental but truly did not understand. Anyway, I understand your lost feeling. Hang in there.

Yes, since both parents died, I've been in panic mode. The nightmares don't stop. I can't take much more.

welcome back. sorry to hear about your parents, I have lost one of my parents some time ago. it does get better with time.

also read your profile where you stated your old log in was calista+12. maybe you can contact a moderator who can help you to either log in that account or deactivate that one and have this one and attach your other posts together. this way you wont lose out on any replies that come to your old posts and people wont get confused by you having two accounts.

Thank you amandalouise. My old account was deactivated but I didn't know I could attach my old posts together. That would be very helpful.