[Chez3]

Chez is growing more unstable. He's getting angrier, sadder, emptier, and he's begun a war of sorts to try and deny the rest of us our existence. I'm worried about him. Nobody knows about it, though. Nobody can help him, because he keeps a straight face and somehow acts like your everyday person. We're a secretive system, and Chez takes that to heart in everything. He doesn't know when to admit that he needs help, and it's destroying him. How do you help someone who doesn't want it?

[Chez3]

I forgot to mention this earlier, but I think that he's trying to stop feeling altogether. I think he's trying to get rid of us because we feel strong emotions that he can't really handle, and he's just trying to become a psychopath.

[MickeyCheeky]

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by Chez3

I forgot to mention this earlier, but I think that he's trying to stop feeling altogether. I think he's trying to get rid of us because we feel strong emotions that he can't really handle, and he's just trying to become a psychopath.

Well, the good news is you can't just "become" a psychopath. You either have it in you to feel empathy or you don't. You can "pretend" to be the opposite for a while, but if isn't your true nature to be that way then you just... won't be.

Honestly, what I read most through your words is that he needs a break. One particular one of us launches head first into denial or everything when things get beyond her comfort zone. She NEEDS to do believe nothing happened when it all gets too much for her.
Maybe it would help Chez for you all to back off a bit, not overwhelm him with strong emotions and the such like. Sounds like he needs some TLC to be honest. Or just a break.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Chez3

I forgot to mention this earlier, but I think that he's trying to stop feeling altogether. I think he's trying to get rid of us because we feel strong emotions that he can't really handle, and he's just trying to become a psychopath.

if you google the word psychopath you will find its a personality disorder (its now called anti social personality disorder - lack of remorse, isolating, non conforming to rules, irritable, aggressive, disregard for safety of one self and others)

my point many people with dissociative disorders sometimes do have more than one diagnosis. and sometimes people with dissociative disorders do have these same problems.

in other words relax, take time to breath. there are lots of people in the personality boards that can help you with what ever your host is going through in regards to acting out in these ways.

this is the dissociative boards so about the dissociation and your host trying to get rid of you all... I am sorry you all are going through this. thought my alters had a bit of a problem, for me I didnt have a problem with this, you see my treatment providers sat down with me and explained that getting the diagnosis didnt change anything. it just answered the question of what has been already going on all my life since before I was 5. they explained to me I was no different than I had always been.

what was confusing and scarey for me was after integration. you see I wasnt one whole personality all my life so I had to learn what that was, learn how to handle having all the memories, learn how to handle having all the emotions, everything that comes with being one whole personality. having my personality chopped up in sections called alters was normal for me, not being chopped up in sections called alters was not normal for me.

I wonder if chez is actually going through this process of becoming whole again. this does not mean you all will be going away or being gotten rid of, just that you all will be combining/ merging back together. that would answer why he is having more problems now then before or as your title says worse. DID isnt the kind of disorder that gets worse. so this would answer whats going on for all of you.

maybe you all can sit down with a mental health treatment provider who can explain whats going on with chez and what it means for all of you and how you all can help each other through what ever is going on. we cant do that for you all we can do is tell you what we did when we were having this same problem and thats what I and my alters did when there was a sudden sense of things getting worse, the treatment providers let everyone know we were not actually getting worse, what they were perceiving as getting worse was actually getting better and merging together to become one whole personality again. maybe this is whats happening to chez.

I have parts that are in pure denial so much that they have a block where we can’t talk to them. They are very angry and swear that he can force us away. He succeeds for a few days, but that amount of fury and resolve melts away, eventually.

This part hates himself for not having control of himself, but yet doesn’t understand why he does whatever he thinks he does (we do)... He needs outside help of which we have none. There’s a lot of pride in him....so outside help he seeks none.

We have parts that are so singleminded that they don’t see the obvious and miss out on the evidential clues.

Maybe in therapy one day....

[Fuzzybear]