[seeker33]

Until now I often felt that everything was real, but I was dreaming or unreal. Today I'm afraid that I am real but things are illusions. Or someone is doing an experiment on me. Or I'm in a movie but I don't know about it.

This is rather scary Now I don't even have my T... What's this, are there some tools?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by seeker33

Until now I often felt that everything was real, but I was dreaming or unreal. Today I'm afraid that I am real but things are illusions. Or someone is doing an experiment on me. Or I'm in a movie but I don't know about it.

This is rather scary Now I don't even have my T... What's this, are there some tools?

in me this would be called psychosis (having hallucinations, delusional beliefs and paranoia in me)

it is scary when something like this just suddenly happens with no history of it happening before. the last time this happened to me I went in to the emergency room, let them know my treatment provider was out of town and they prescribed an antipsychotic that helped.

suggestion if this continues to bother you may be you can go to your local hospitals emergency room, or your medical doctor who can help you with this.

[seeker33]

I don't have such strong emotions connected to this, definitely not so strong to require emergency. It's more like a normal derealistaion-dissociation, just a type I'm not used to. It's caused by my current situation and stress in my life.

[seeker33]

But it's not pleasant. I was wondering if someone can recommend any grounding exercises or something like that in case it returns. I feel better now. I wrote that post at night yesterday when it was much stronger.

[MickeyCheeky]

Yes, this does sound scary, seeker33. If it gets worse, please go to an hospital and ask for help. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Have you talked to your Pdoc about this? Maybe that could help. Sending many hugs

[seeker33]

I don't have a pdoc, I don't take any meds. I only have a talk therapist. I don't feel like I need meds at the moment. I'm used to derealisation since my childhood due to trauma. This is my coping mechanism that has saved my life. It's just that I'm used to a certain type but this time it feels different than usual. But I can function normally, go to work, bake Christmas cookies etc... I'm a master in ignoring my emotions. No one ever cared about how I felt so I learned to ignore myself too and just do what I have to. It's OK... I just needed to vent and perhaps hear if someone had something similar.

[MickeyCheeky]

Just stay safe and take care of yourself, seeker33. Sending many hugs to you

[seeker33]

Thank you so much for your support, Mickey. It means a lot when someone replies to me.

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by seeker33

Until now I often felt that everything was real, but I was dreaming or unreal. Today I'm afraid that I am real but things are illusions. Or someone is doing an experiment on me. Or I'm in a movie but I don't know about it.

This is rather scary Now I don't even have my T... What's this, are there some tools?

I’ve experienced this and it is unnerving in a detached way.

I’ve had the feeling too of being “watched” and when I read your comment about being in a movie, I thought, “Oh yeah! That’s that feeling!”

There’s really nothing, that I have found, that helps to ground me when I get in this state of perception. It’s not an anxiousness but just a shift in how things appear in my perception.

It helps me to know that someone else experiences this.

It seems to shift back on its own for me.

[seeker33]

Thank you Trail runner, that's exactly how I felt. Not the emergency type of anxiety, but a deep and subtle one that is chronic. And exactly as you say, not sure if anxiety is even a proper term. A shift in perception is much better.
I'm aware of myself and my actions, I can think rationally and perform everyday tasks. No one notices anything, but my awareness and perception of things is just weird.

[dlantern]

How bad are the pokes? One time my friend told me it kepts her up at night aching ailing and in sooo much of the reminders it is even hard to like the bed. The nightmares we're helpful knowing that intelligent people stay awake over night..