[blackrainbow]

I read something someone wrote and it made me think on how I deal with what I know day by day.
Was a while back that I was diagnosed with DID amongst other things so I've known for a long while now, but I still don't deal with it well. I still have loads of issues, it still makes me uncomfortable, it makes me feel embarrassed and ashamed I guess is the right word. I hope I'm not offending anyone as its not my intention, it's just the way I feel.
I don't like to think I have this. I know I do. I've seen posts I didn't write. I don't read them, but I've noticed them. I've seen notes on paper and other things, plus I've been told things by the T I used to have and by my wife.
It's easier for me to think of them as people who live with me like my wife lives with me. It's easier for me to think of them as being over there somewhere rather than inside me. It's easier to think of them having nothing to do with me.
If I think about it too much I start thinking about how this doesn't really help, how I should maybe try and see things as they are but that's too scary and makes it too real. I mean I know it's real but it makes me feel like I'm really crazy, not well.
So it's easier to stick it all back in its box and think of them as just being over there somewhere, their own people and nothing to do with me.
Not sure why I'm writing this or what I want, I just had to put it down.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry, blackrainbow DID is certainly not easy to accept or to live with. You're definitely not alone in this. How is your therapy going? Is it helping a bit? Hopefully you'll learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you

[blackrainbow]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I'm so sorry, blackrainbow DID is certainly not easy to accept or to live with. You're definitely not alone in this. How is your therapy going? Is it helping a bit? Hopefully you'll learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you

I dont have a T right now I had one for several yrs when I lived in texas
but I dont have one here in the uk I was on the waitign list for about 2 yrs
then I got one but she was not very helpful she made me feel worse she
wasnt the right person i stayed with her for a bit over a year and it wasnt
good then i tried one online but it didnt work out so no T atm
thanks for writing to me it helps when i put somethign down to have
people listen
thanks for saying i can message you feel free to do the same

sending hugs to you

[MickeyCheeky]

Perhaps you could try to see another therapist? Sometimes it takes time to find the right fit. I'm glad writing here helps a bit. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. Sending many hugs to you