[Fuzzybear]

Sometimes I wonder when this Punishment will End

[Yaowen]

Dear Fuzzybear,

I am very, very sorry things are going so badly for you!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

Are you talking about the weather? I’m sorry if you are speaking of something more. Sounds terrible. I think punishment is an ugly concept. I much prefer the word discipline.

[Fuzzybear]

I am physically very cold right now. It's late here.

I also feel cold inside

I also think punishment is an ugly concept.

The step maternal unit who ''stole'' my ''dad'' from the mother and I.... told me I ''should be punished all my life'' for ''ruining'' my mother's life. My ''dad'' also said I had ''ruined'' my mother's life.

I once said to my mother that what they did to me (throwing me out and much more..) was like me being in prison.

She simply said (in an indifferent and defensive tone) ''yes it was''

I once told her that she had hurt me.

She just said ''ditto''

I once said maybe she could have given me another ''chance''

Her reply ''I gave you a lot of chances''

Maybe this gives some idea. It was like beating my head against a brick wall trying to ''communicate'' with any of that ''family''

I was the one who got the ''diagnosis''.... they were NPD or ''worse''.... I have worked that out myself.

[SMITH 97]

sorry to hear that and no one deserve that i hope you deal with it soon

Gosh, I am sorry for all that you’ve been through. It is so familiar a song of tragedy and misunderstanding. I think life is most difficult for those who have reached peace and understanding within misfortune. Please continue to be well.

[Fuzzybear]

she wrote me a note.

It said ''stew in your own juice''

She forced me to sit in a pram when I was 5 to shame me.

She wanted me to marry someone who physically, psychologically and sexually abused me as she hated me being in her large house. She wanted her sister to herself. But I was SO SELFISH. So she threw me out and I lived with the other gutter brats. Or alone in the dirt. I deserved even worse.. prison probably Then I would have been the whipping ***** and hated by all the abusers there ... a fitting punishment for being born the wrong sex and wrong everything else.

She wanted me to die

I wish they had finished the job

No, I am so ''weak'' I do not ''deal'' with it