[Zorah]

Dawn has left us most of the time. I'm Jenna, I think she was here while I healed, but I'm not healed. She will come back I think, to cope with real life.
I'm very depressed & I'm afraid I might be dangerous, but one of us bought a whole lot of breeding cats that we have to look after so I'm stuck with it I think. I can't leave the house, but someone drove to the vet 4 times, it wasn't Dawn, & it wasn't me. Who then ?
I wish I could remember my sons as children, I wish to remember the one who married the husband. I'd like to remember my own childhood.
Have any of you recovered these memories & kept them ? Do you have to merge ? Then does it feel like it was all you ? We have got an academic memory that is avaiable to all but the littles (even them sometimes) but no memories of irl, that's compartmentalized.
We think some of us might be trying to merge, we need to know what to expect, not academic but how it FEELS. We are afraid. Will the rest of us die, or will we remember it all as if it were all one ? Do you merge one at a time, or do you have to merge everyone at once ?

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((((((Jenna))))))))))))) I'm sorry you are struggling. I don't think anyone dies when one merges and you don't actually have to merge if you don't all agree to. I hope you are doing okay. I am thinking about you.

[kerria]

(((((((((((((Jenna, Dawn and Everyone inside )))))))))))

my T said that no parts could be left out or die. We need all of our parts. i'm not sure how it would be to share memory. i've never heard of it happening all at once.
Onec i became aware of a teen part's memories . T had asked to use hypnosis to know parts and called me out when Sarah was there and said, '"'kerria' meet Sarah". and i instantly met her and knew all her memories all at the same time.
it was so unique. Usually when we meet someone we just know their name and a little about the way they look, etc- but meeting a part was knowing them on the inside- all the things that she experienced as well as what she was like in her personality. i don't think that we blended though because i know her experiences (memories) but not as mine. They are still hers but i know her- that part of me.
It was a very good feeling. it felt like i was stronger and more whole as a person.
Sending thoughts of strength and joy.

Take care,
kerria

[kerria]

Hi Jenna, i guess that i did know what it was like to share memories--
i'm like you, i have parts that come and i don't know who it is.
It's so much a mystery to have parts, isn't it?
It somehow works out that we share memories when we're ready, though, because we have built-in protection.
Peace to you.
Love,
kerria

[Zorah]

It's OK I think. Dawntreader IS gone as a separate person, she said it was time. I can remember what she did & felt. It's a bit scary, but not as bad as I expected. There are several of us left & 2 of us are called Jenna, but I'm the one who posted to the thread.
Jenna.
Thanks wantoheal & kerria for answering, we needed that.

Jenna,

Please check in and let us know how you are doing!

Petunia

[Zorah]

Hi, Jenna asked me to post this coz she hurt her right hand & can'tv type or use the mouse. i'm can use my left hand coz right hand broken, not work for long time wheni live most. SHE TALKED TO ME - SHE KNOWS WE ARE HERE NOW. i'm peter.

[shadowdancer]

nice to meet you Peter. i hope the right hand heals quickly. and thank you for posting an update to let us know how Jenna is doing.

-shadow