Me

Yep. We don't know enough about the plant world. We can't exist without them, for sure.

40 days since the purge event and feeling as whole and healthy as I was about 30 years ago.

It's like a miracle, isn't it!

I haven't been purged for a long time. I can feel them crawling everywhere inside of me but I don't care anymore.

We're doing good lately. Was there a huge solar flare that hit Earth a few days ago. Was wondering if anyone felt a massive jolt to their forehead. I've never felt anything like it before. It was like a lightning bolt hit our forehead. TBH it felt exactly like a DID switch except 100 times stronger leaving our forehead in pain for awhile. Our eyes instantly rolled back so hard they also hurt afterwards and our jaw / teeth snapped shut nearly almost biting our tongue. There may have been missing time as well which is the scariest part because a lot of us know there are ones inside who are sneaky, disturbed persecutors who are filled with trauma and anger.


No more purging and we feel there's no more need. The remaining ones are parts / alters, not parasites / spirits possessing the body. Most of us have accepted our condition. Some are getting concerned because our condition seems to be slowly getting more noticeable with much quicker personality changes and faster switching but at least most of the time we have memory. It seems the parts who have their own memory switch at night.

Anyone ever have a cuckoo alter? This is first time ever someone fronted and started making loud sharp funny sounds. Maybe it was a little. We have lots of them.

I'm doing better for now but don't feel like typing much. Feels so dissociated and like I've been asleep for weeks. Take care, Paul

I feel like too many people right now...

Often I wonder why I've been diagnosed with so many disorders and I had the thought that maybe it's common with DID because of having so many alters.

Little Paul has been fronting a LOT lately. He helps us so much because of his curious jolly personality but like most of us he's very shy.

Wish I or is it we knew who I was but truth is it's mostly a mystery. I haven't had therapy in over a year but things would change. My DID T wanted us to integrate. This system was afraid. But that's what most of this system wants now. We now see DID in a more academic sense. At least in the way my DID T did. He called us parts. We're really one mind, but shattered in countless pieces. We want to be whole again!

I hear people talking inside me so much but ...

Sometimes I just want to scream and find the nearest bridge or cliff although I prefer a cliff because I love nature so much that's where I want to end!