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So I've had a ton of experiences that are classical DID, alters pushing me out & doing things where I lose consciousness & memory or I'm pushed into the black void. Every so often I get evidence. Sometimes they take pictures on my phone, eat food, things moved around. Also we've had intense early childhood trauma which is known to cause DID. Sometimes we get flashbacks of being tortured as as an infant which always gives us 15-20 minute non epileptic seizures.

Regardless I still question whether or not an inner voice is a real alter or just my imagination. I & other hosts have begged them to leave written message but they won't. They say they're too scared, they don't want to be part of outer world. I don't blame them, but I don't even know when it's an alter. I don't know what to do, and it makes all of us hosts feel so isolated and alone.

I'm wondering if anyone else has been through this and if you found something that worked.

[stahrgeyzer]

Yesterday I left a pin and paper out just in case any alters decide to leave me a message. TBH I don't even know if they know how to write.

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But I do know that one of them really love tomatoes