[___Shadow___]

Just saying i hate this bloody world, i hate my bloody brain, my bloody attiude, my bloody mouth, bloody hair, bloody hussband, bloody freaking dogs, bloody hell bugs, bloody trees turn ugly, bloody face, frickin body, stupid bills, bloody bloody bloody....
How can i feel so bloody and know inside of me that this will passs soon and all this will look finee again?/? HOW??

(((((((((((((((((((((( shadow ))))))))))))))))))))

What's going on? I'm sorry you feel so bad.

[JudeeB]

It must be so hard to feel this way. You are not alone. We hear your pain and confusion.

Hope you will keep sharing

JudeeB

[pegasus]

Yes, I feel like that all the bloody time!

Hang in there ((((((((((((((( Shadow )))))))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

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BB

[___Shadow___]

Thanks.
Feeling better this morning( I THINK) but this makes no sense. I don't know how to deal with feeling so Raged and then bake a cake like the rage in me never happened. After Rage normaly I'm totally SAD to point of wishing, planing, knowing I'll be dead soon so who cares. I come out of it, Most times I remember enough to know I was there and small things that happened but that nothing feels the smae anymore, nothing. I could whistle with the birds, find a rock to be a treasure, or ya, bake a cake like nothing really happened, yet I know inside I went there again, prob caused grief for my love ones, prob wanted to die again, prob want to leave the house I love so much and would never ever want to leave in a millon years. Yet I want to when I'm filled with rage~ in a heart beat I would go but soon to clawl back like so many times before. I tell myself stop but go anyways. Oh your all so sweet to listen to all my bloodies and not run away and say nothing to my rant.
There are so many bloodies in here, yet a fire to do and see everything with a smile on my face, and part that keeps screaming at me that you know it'll never work! ~~Just take 100's of pills and get out of misery. AHHHHHHHHH, NOTHING MAKES SENSE!!!!
I'm tired of fighting with myself, tired tired tired
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[bipolar_bear]

Some alters can be very difficult to work with. Do you have a t? It can be very useful to have someone to help you sort through the strong emotions and thoughts different alters have with them. One important thing is to keep yourself safe. It sounds like you are aware what is happening. Please do whatever you need to do. Here is a link that may be useful. You may want to keep phone numbers handy.

http://psychcentral.com/helpme.htm

Feel free to PM me anytime. (((((((((((((((shadow and all))))))))))

BB

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((___Shadow___))))))))))))) Days like this stink. I'm sorry you were having one. I hope things get much calmer soon. Take care of you.