[Kiya]

Ok... so i have to admit I am REALLY nervous. I keep switching in and out and having lil mini blackouts or something where i am losing time and I am not sure "who" will be present tomorrow for the interview or what will be said. I'm totally gonna blow this, i can feel it. my case worker will be there, but she's only met me now like 4 times. at least i take comfort in her abilities to recognize when i've switched or dissociated.
But omg i am so nervous about this. I can't concentrate on anything today!!!

[wanttoheal]

That might be to your benefit. Try not to worry too much. Things will work as they will. You can only do what you can do.
((((((((((((((((kiya))))))))))))))

Kiya!!!!!!

First of all, please don't tell youself "I'm totally gonna blow this". !!!!!!!!!

You have made huge, huge, gigantic, mammoth strides lately. You are doing great. There is NO REASON that this interview won't go well!

You are an amazing person. You will be fine, and your case worker will be there to help.

I can't wait to hear how it goes

Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

You can do this.

[Kiya]

ok
Breathing
You're right - I take back the words that condemned me before i even begin. Cancel Cancel Cancel.

*bighting nails* Um... instead i can say.... I am ok and have everything i need to get through this.
Better?

W2H you're right - this will go as it goes....

(((((Earthmama, W2H))))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))))))))))))) Just be you. All of you. People that know you believe you are eligible for this. Maybe believe in them too?

BB

[Kiya]

You are right, I am sure. Thank you for that reminder and bit of wisdom.

[multipixie9]

((((((((((Kiya))))))))))

I think it really will go ok. I just think you are going to be fine. I will pray for you to get through it alright and that you can just do what Earthmama said - She said it all really well.

HUGS, HUGS, HUGS, HUGS,

Leslie and the Pixies

[Kiya]

*breathing!!!*
thank you for the support!!!

*breatheeeeeeeee*

[Kiya]

One hour and counting......

Breathe.......

I am not sure what impression to make.... I took off all the black nail polish, all the extra rings and bracelets... I couldn't part with my necklaces... and am wearing sort of business casual; a black knee length skirt with a burgandy long sleeve (to cover the scars and cuts) and actually brushed my hair and put it back in a clip.....

It;s like this is a work interview... but it's the opposite sorta. This is really strange.
I'll check in later.
Kiya

[Zorah]

laughs madly abt Kiya taking off the black nail polish & the rings & bracelets

hope it all went well (((((Kiya))))) & they didn't trigger you

[Kiya]

I actually matched the guy at the interview! Both in burgandy shirts and black bottoms. Heh. And case worker was in all black.

did trigger... CW pulled me back. that was good. Or i would have totally been lost.

[multipixie9]

Kiya,

Congrats for doing the scary interview. YOU DID GOOD!!!

I went through the same for physical as well as emotional. The emotional was actually not referenced that much, but it was still scary and I was glad when it was over and done.

Hopefully you will here from them before too many weeks go by or maybe a month, I think....

Kudos for bravery and persistence,

Leslie and the Pixies ( u did reely gud, kiya, ya for u)

[Kiya]

Thanks leslie... pixies.....
i have to leave for the next scary thing in 30 min.....


then i see t after that.....

[multipixie9]

Kiya,

I really think it will turn out ok for you. Just take it slow and breathe in and out and do one thing at a time.

tak care Kiya, we hope u not too skard, we lik u cos u nis!

Leslie and the pixies

[Kiya]

(((((((((((((((Leslie, pixies)))))))))))))
thanks - i think you're right.... just trying to ride it out. and breathe. I forget to breathe when I panic. even trying to breathe is hard.