[___Shadow___]

i am like this, i played into the want that was not my own, and poof just like that i was not in control but there enough to know what happened but not feel. I never had the courage to do this before.
it's not fair
it's cool
it's scary
it's a life long sentence i'll have to serve , isn't it?

[wanttoheal]

It can get better. Hang in there.

[notz]

I'm here for you, Shadow. Take special care.

[multipixie9]

shadow,

i know you are really feeling bad about things right now, but i disagree with one thing you said. this is NOT a life sentence that you can't get out of. Nope!

this is a way of living you started as a child to cope with severe problems. it is just now working so well anymore and that creates stress on you. with help you can learn, grow and heal and create things in your life.

the only jail is one that we sometimes create in our minds when we keep repeating negative things over and over to ourselves. you just need to be patient with yourself. and i am preaching to you what i need to keep hearing myself. that's why i come here is to encourage others and read their encouragements for me when i'm struggling a lot!!!

[kimmydawn]

I thought just as you did...I couldn't imagine what change/different would even look like so thought it impossible. I was wrong!

Change/different/better CAN happen. It truly can. I've seen so much internal healing. It took lots of time and LOTS of repetition, but one day when I started doing my normal internal reflection change was occurring...good, comfortable, natural change. It was/is awesome and feels right.

I hope that for you, and wanted you to know that, though it takes time, it CAN happen hon...whatever your goals are can happen.

KD