confusion after appointments

I thought I was the only person in the world that loses language under stress. Thanks for showing me otherwise.

almost a year later and in such a different space from when this was first posted.

so awesome to see how far one has come with the hard work of therapy and meds. this is full time work too. as one of our friends said to her son when he asked when she is going to get a job (she's on SSDI) "sweetie, right now my job is to get well so that I can be the best mommy to you and the best person I can be for myself. the healing work I'm doing is my full time job." he understood that enough and hasn't asked or bugged her since.

if only more people understood that healing sometimes is a full time job and as hard as training for a marathon while working an 80 hr week. perhaps some have it easier. our path has been one of much travail however we find peace when able to see how far we've come and what changes we've made.

we're at a place where we can honestly say we're proud of ourselves for how hard we're working and how long we've lasted through all this heinous disease/disorder stuff.

we wouldn't have even been able to acknowledge our accomplishments not too long ago. thank goodness for the ability too see and appreciate that our lives are worth living and that we're not hostage to our disease or disorder.

we can live a functioning life, perhaps not at the level we had once thought, but we're not writing our future off like we used to when mired in the depths of our illness.

part of current therapy is compiling info from past few years. a decent portion of that is here on this site in one form or another.

we hope others can find peace in their lives with the help of skilled professionals (books only got us so far.....). we'd be so lost w/o the help of ours. a widely cast support network can be so valuable as the varied input from those not connected helps us to see that we are making progress. when folks that are not in communication report to us that they see improvements we know we're on the right track. there wouldn't be consensus if we were sliding in the wrong direction.

as for the confusion after appointments? we're better able to recognize the ptsd shutdown before it overtakes us most times now. we also have better communication with the therapist which helps clear up the fogginess when we are lost in it. arranging our schedule so that therapy days rarely have other tasking engagements has helped keep meltdowns to a minimal. learning these things over time and making the sometimes uncomfortable changes have gotten us to today.

confusion remains at times but we're not confused about our will to survive and thrive. that much we know is gonna happen........we just don't know when the thriving begins *lol* we're certainly ready for some soon!