[Jewels]

do any of you have symptomology of deep seated, unrational fear? like you are going to die even there is no evidence to say that is true...and your skin hair is prickly and you are jumpy and just plain scared down to your toes? we are experiencing that right now, and don't know how to fend it off. we are unsure of who is feeling the fear, but it is a fear that has all our senses on high alert and we are vigilant in watching...anyone want to field this?

Beth

[multipixie9]

Yes, I don't know if this is what they call "hypervigilance". It is when a person is on high alert like something horrid is about to happen and nothing is happening NOW. some in our system have had this to an extreme, but it is better now because of therapy and some inner healing and some help from God.

It is awful and I am sorry you feel this way. But you are not alone. I suspect many, many of DID folks have this.

I'd suggest you "talk to your head", ask some questions of the others and see if they can tell you what is going on and why now. I am sorry you feel so bad. hugs and a prayer if you want them,

leslie and leah

[wanttoheal]

Phew, yes. I have this often. It's hard to combat sometimes. Sometimes if I can get totally immersed in something and force myself to really concentrate on something, it helps. Sometimes I just have to let myself be vigilant and listen to every noise and movement.

I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. Please take gentle care.

[iamtwilight]

oooh yes! i am feeling this today, too. my pdoc has given me anti-anxiety medication for this, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.

when it doesn't, i do like wanttoheal - just ride with it. it's especially difficult when there are so few places in this world where there are no weird sounds, even on the countryside some sounds can be frightening.

or then i try and see if it's a little feeling that fear, and start playing a kids game, or cuddling up with a stuffie and watch cartoons or something like that. sometimes i read kids stories aloud. (though that requires concentration)

hope there were a few ideas you think you could try sometime, i'm sorry you're feeling that right now - it is almost paralyzing sometimes (ironically).. sending you safe hugs if you want/need them.

twilite et al

Beth
It is scary when that feeling comes over us. It's like panic, anxiety and fear all rolled into one thing. Hypervigelance is the right term for that feeling we think.

Some of twilight's ideas are good ones and help with grounding. I here you twilight when you say reading requires too much concentration sometimes and that even "good" sounds can be scary. For that reason we have made a "good feeling" book. It's just cut out serene pictures pasted on plain paper and made into a "book". No words. Just a picture book of things we like.
It helps to ground us.

[Hunny]

Little known to me, trauma had caused my brain to stay in this state of hypervigilance or readiness. The brain was doing it's job. Thanks brain!

But, it could not find that much needed rested readiness state, so I took things in my own hands and got some help by going to T and by using my calming techniques but the one that has worked the best is where I sleep better by altering the resting state which then minimizes the hypervigilance and the rumination. It's quite a change and would not have believed it if I had not tried it.

Do take care Jewel, good to hear from you. Missed you.

IS

[Jewels]

i have ta say we r really really copin badly right now...seems like im not wanted out, but Yahna cant handle it bein out...but nobody wants ta b out either...like its such a big thing...so, ok, im out again...after a hurried leisure into the frying pan with its hot grease an feelin like we r dammed if we do an dammed if we dont an either way we r comin ta feel like we need ta do a group hideaway...an maybe nobody will really notice we r gone from here for a while...yeah right...like that will happen...we r in such a precarious position right now...nobody dares breathe here...an we cant seem ta stop the flow of tears that have fallen for more than two days now...arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh we hate feelin like this...all discombobulated...why cant anythin go right just once in a while????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

hi, this is naomi---i can relate to where you are. we're there too---
don't give up, ok? i'm trying not to. can we hold hands or something to keep each other from disappearing???
crying alot here too.
naomi

[Jewels]

hi Naomi...ty for offerin ur hand of friendship...deep down we know there has gotta b somethin good that will come from all of this...but right now we cant see any of it...im sorry ta hear u r cryin lots too...i wonder if its just the time of year...if u dont let go i wont let go so that we all will b safe an know that we r worth somethin...i will try not ta give up...if u dont too...

abbi of jewels

abbi of jewels
ok--it's such a scary place isn't it?
we've done this before, so i am thinking we can do
but like yous, i don't like this place.
keep hanging on and we'll grab some others
along the way
together we will ALL make a chain
and then we can all hang on.
naomi

[Elysium]

Hey there,

I wanted to post originally when you started this thread but I wasn't sure what or if I really wanted to share.

I do have a deep seated fear that something bad is going to happen. Something specific. I don't want to say exactly because I wouldn't want to trigger anyone here. It has something to do with a person using force against another's will to harm them.

I don't know where this fear comes from or why it is there. I have this sense that I "know" that something happened to me when I was very little, but I have no memory of it and no evidence. All I can do is work with these perceptions and feelings and do my best to not let them hold me back. Unfortunately, that's easier said than done.

[senbmeb]

Sometimes i feel like this and I cant get off my couch/ bed/ chair, or whatever i may be on and it really scary. What I do is i prepare my self before this happens. Like, I always turn ALL the lights on before I'm home alone. I never keep a T.V. on unless im in the room. And I always have a phone by me, It really does help to call someone and have them remind you its in your head.

-Good luck!