[Elysium]

Uuuh!!

I'm kind of exhausted right now.

I switched earlier today when I was at home and one of my littles came forward...it was nice for a while...felt little...safe...happy...wonderous.

Then I switched to one of my more emotionally fubard littles and things are hazy from then on....

Got in the car...went to get lunch...everything blurry...didn't feel right, like I was on some other plain, or in some other dimension. Everything looked weired.

Settled down after lunch....just got a call for a job interview for tomorrow. This is a good thing...technically. Don't have a job...need one...want one...kind of, but scared to screw up...scared to be found out. No confidence.

Now my whole body feels like it's vibrating on the inside...my system is starting to spin....I hate feeling this way....

Want to feel normal....

[turquoisesea]

That feeling of chaos inside is awful. I'm sorry you feel it Elysium.

Do you have any co/con? I wonder what the alter intended. I get very scared when surroundings look different and weird.
Good for you about the job interview. Please don't feel like you'll be "found out"; I know, I do it too, but all there is to find out is that a good person is looking for a job.

[Elysium]

Thanks guys...

I do have co/con, but sometimes it seems they just don't want to talk to eachother....or they just don't want to talk to me...if that makes any sense.

I do feel better today though. No freaky-deaky stuff like yesterday....Thank Goodness. My mental glue always feels like it's starting to disolve when stuff like that happens.

I went to my interview. I think it went very well and I left with a positive feeling....the manager was very easy to talk to and the environment was clean, quiet, and peaceful. I'm hoping with all hope that I get offered a position. Hopefully will hear something next week. Now it's just the waiting game.

Don't want to talk about it to much...i'm afraid I'll jinx it...