[Monty_girl]

I'm not sure how to explain this or what it truely is. But something happened a few months ago that hasn't gone away so I'm not sure what it is. And I really don't know how to talk about it with T. I hoped T would figure it out on his own, but I only see T once a month, And so much IRL as taken so much of the attention lately we haven't talked about much else.

First thing is I've been in DID T for awhile. Dx'ed Jan 2000, and been with my T now for almost 7 yrs. So I've done a lot, a lot, of work with my T. What happened was in Nov & Dec we worked with a piece ( alter, what have you ) and that very self destruckive alter was faced with reality. She's became awear of time passing, we're older now, even down to her favorite cat has passed away. Just a lot. Everything seems to be fine with this piece. But since this happened I learned of a new alter LLea, but the thing is LLea seems to be a combination of a number of my stronger alters. I'm not sure how I go about telling T, I think LLea is Rachel, Lisa, Sarah, Tina and a few other alters in one. I'm not really sure about any of this. The only thing I know is that I can't communitate with any of these alters since the work we did with my troublabled alter a few months ago. Does this make sense to anyone? I'm really confused and lost with this. And since LLea has come along I really dissociate all the time. Is she taking control of things now and not me??

OK how do I go about talking to T about this??

I think you have made a really go start by what you have posted here.
Start with this post. Perhaps you will have to see T a bit more often until you figure this out.

my thoughts

[Monty_girl]

Well I told T about all this. I did it at the end of the session. I didn't really know how to talk about any of it. He seemed really concerned about everything, plus my mood state bring very low. He was like you need to see me again very soon. He only see's ppl on fridays ( he has another job, has a private practice of just a handful of ppl ) But he's at a training for his main job next week and full the friday after that. So we'll see him again on the first of May. ( If I can keep it together until then )

[Jewels]

Perhaps you can ask your T for an email address. I don't really recommend this, but for some it works. You can email your thoughts, concerns, questions, and the next time he sees you he might have an inkling of where to tackle this situation and how to do it. Of course, if you have to call, you have to call. Do what you need to do to keep yourself safe.

Yahna, the main Jewel