[Monty_girl]

I feel so utterly lonely. Like this hugh piece of me is just missing. When T asked me yesterday what was on my mind all I could say was their gone, their just gone. I just started shaking and I wanted to cry so very very hard and I just couldn't. I don't know how to talk about it, I don't understand what's happening, and I'm out here alone with no one to help me. I don't understand what's happening, I'm so very scared, hurt, lonely and no one can understand what's happening. IS this what 11yrs of therapy is, alone and sad? I don''''''''''''''''''t know

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((((((monty)))))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad right now. I wish I had some answers for you. I have a solid shoulder and a good ear though. Please take gentle care of yourself right now.

[Elysium]

(((((Monty)))))

I'm here for you too!

I'm sorry......

Please be gentle and patient with yourself right now. It sounds scary for you and I can tell you are hurting.

If you need to talk privately, you can PM me. I'm sure there are others that would be available too. Otherwise, we are here for you....keep reaching out!! We'll reach back!!

[dangray45]

hi im new and yes i do understand when people go threw a terror it hurts us and others become weak from it i believe there is an honesty that lives with a person who's expierenced the same thing id be happy to share my story to anyone and say i care and yep i do understand

here for you. just keep talking.

[Monty_girl]

Thank You everyone for caring. I'm not really sure about what's happened. I don't know if a number of my pieces (alters) are gone or intergrated into one or intergrated into a completely new alter. I just don't know. All I know is it's quiet. It took me 3 months just to bring the subject up with T. And that's as much as I could handle. Thank you all for listening. I don't know who else to turn too.

[kaytibear]

Hi Monty,
I am an integrated multiple and I remember the silence getting to me at first too. It's hard to explain to anyone who hasn't felt it. Maybe you have formed a new alter or maybe they did integrate. My advice to you is to keep talking about it with your pdoc or friends or here online. It will get easier and better to deal with in time.

Kayti

[Sad In TX]

Hey there Monty. I'm so sorry you feel so bad. If you wanna chat I am here.

PS - love the Duran Duran Tattoo. I used to draw that symbol all the time!

[Monty_girl]

Thanks Kayti and TX

It's such an uncomfortable feeling, the silence.I'm just staying in bed and don't want to deal with the world right now.

TX, I used to draw that symbol everywhere as well. All over my notebooks and folders.

[Jewels]

Monty

Monty
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad.

No one can understand it unless they're in the same place, and many here have been or are. You aren't alone.
You can PM me anytime.

((((((((((((((((((Monty)))))))))))))))

I got a concussion 2 weeks ago tomorrow, and it was almost instantly quiet. I thought that I didn't like having alters, but when they disappeared, it was scary and LONELY. I've only had hints of them since then...I'm not sure what happened.

But I think I know a little bit of what you're feeling.

(((Monty)))

(((Treehouse))) if ok