[nicolemarieNJ]

I am diagnosed with BPD. I know that many people with my disorder are told to have the 'lonliest' inner child. Its how I feel. I sometimes feel like I split into three different people and two of them are little girls, one is 4, one is 13. But I know everything that I am doing in these ages-I dont know if I purposefully bring them out but I do know that others can regress me just by saying the right thing, or calling babygirl. I bring out these personalities in me and I search for someone who can nurture and guide, who understands this. I am wondering if this is just my BPD wanting someone to depend on, or is this a form of DID-i have lots of little girl pajamas, the five year old in me likes to play with dolls, suck her thumb, have a sippy cup, talks in a baby voice. when i was married my husband told me he can tell i regressed by my eyes, because i became very child like. when the 13 year old comes out she is really angry, and has a huge attitude problem, sometimes when the five year old in me needs ot much the 13 year old comes out and hates that she is around or other times tries to be there for her. i then feel like the last personality is either who i really am or an older person. even when i was younger in my twenties i always dressed older and was mature for my age-this part of me has things together, can take care of herself and others. its when the little girls come out that my life falls apart. what is wrong with me? does anyone else relate to this?

[jeNeTeConnaisPas]

people with BPD can have split parts of themself. even if your symptoms arent severe enough that you could tell for certain you have alters.

my mother has BPD and often tells me she has other personalities, which i have noticed. but again she recognizes her parts are still her, whereas someone with DID have alters but typically these alters believe they are separate and are someone independant of the "host".

i would talk to a psychologist or therapist further on this.

feel free to keep us posted!

Could be ddnos like me. Just cuz you have BPD doesn't mean you can't have ddnos just like just cuz you have allergies doesn't mean you can't have the flu. Also, many people with ddnos/DID are misdiagnosed many times over. i'm not saying you're misdiagnosed but further inquiry is probably a good idea. Much peace and goodness to you and yours.

Maybe this will help?



http://www.amazon.com/Dissociative-Identity-Disorder-Sourcebook-Sourcebooks/dp/0737303948/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1241193498&sr=1-1

Hmmm...i know i don't have bi-polar or borderline but i also don't quite fit the criteria for DID. i have a dx of ddnos and tend to think i had DID when i was younger. It's all very interesting...and confusing.

Sorry nicolemarieNJ, not trying to divert things to me here just pondering it all.

[Jewels]

we just wanna say DO NOT TRY TO DIAGNOSE YOURSELF, and go to your therapist, tell him/her what is happening, and ask if you can be tested. That is the way to go to find out if you are DID or have BPD. BPD CAN have times of dissociation, but it's more like split personality, where you know that you have these others inside, but you remain knowledgeable about what is happening when they are out and you know who they are, what they do, and can allow them out at will. But, please, don't try to diagnose yourself. It gets very frustrating with so many different answers, and you will only be more confused and unsure. Going the therapist way is THE safest way to go, as we are not professionals here, and can only guess at what you have. Hope you find out what is going on and can find help to find your way through the maze.

abbi of jewels