I don't know how to feel.

I've just separated with my partner of four years. We had quite a few issues, including him being unfaithful and abusive and me having trust issues, and now I've just moved away for university, which made everything worse. He's already starting to move on (its only been a week) and it hurts me so much.

I'm only 19 and this relationship has been my life. We had so many plans, memories and everything, and all of a sudden it feels like my life has no direction, I don't know how to feel, whether to talk to him or cut him out of my life completely, whether to feel angry or happy or free or sad or what...

My emotions are screwed up and I don't know what to do. This pain in unbearable and I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. I just want this pain to end!
I feel like no one will ever love me again or put up with all the baggage I come with...I feel like no one will ever find my attractive again or even bother looking at me. I'm terrified to even think of having to put my trust into someone else...I'm so scared...It was like a security blanket and now it's been ripped away..

Does anyone have any tips or anything to help overcome this pain? What should I do? I'm lost... Help would really be appreciated, thank you.

Just saw this message. So sorry for this loss in your relationship. I don't blame you for having trust issues, I would too. Of course it hurts.
Honey, I know this relationship was important to you. But he should not BE your life. He was a part of your life.
Right now your emotions are so messed up. Don't try to make any big decisions while you are upset.
You are in a lot of pain. Take really good care of yourself during this difficult time.

Thank you for this it really means a lot to me, thank you xx