[notmrsbrightside]

He's not abusive. But we haven't been working for a while and I don't even know how I feel about him anymore. To speak in broad terms, everything bad that's happened to me over the last 4 years has been a direct result of my marriage to him. He even told me tonight that he's tired of me. We argue about the same stuff over and over and I want to say it's a passing storm but it's been this way for me for a long time. His mother and sister only make it 10 times worse and I honestly don't know if it's worth it anymore. I even suffered from depression earlier in the year as well because we've been trying to conceive for almost a year and his dad was battling and lost his fight with cancer.

What do I do? Is it time to start seriously thinking about leaving?

That is something only you can decide , have you both tried marriage counseling ?
Have you told your husband you are thinking about leaving him ?

[notmrsbrightside]

It comes up in arguments from time to time. He has said or implied it too. We haven't tried counseling but to be honest, I don't want to. I find myself fantasizing more and more about moving. Leaving eveyone and starting a new life.

Then it sounds like you already know your answer in your heart , it's just a matter of time
before you act on it .

[notmrsbrightside]

Sigh. Thanks.

I wish you the best

[hannabee]

Better to get out now while there are no children in the mix. That would only complicate things. Arguing all the time is for the birds, really it is and you deserve better! Big hug!

There is a difference between wanting things to work out, but feeling hopeless or discouraged about how that might happen - and feeling disconnected and detached. I think if you're feeling like you're ready to move on, feeling disconnected to the point of feeling detached, that is a sign in itself. Emotional distance is a signal, a disconnection, then over time if it isn't addressed it can turn into detachment. Sorry that you're going through this