I Think I Learned Too Late:

Ya, I see it. I'm missing the stability of a home more than anything.

I think one of our human flaws is in how we perceive stability. I used the term illusion with you and was not sure how you would react and that can create a deeper subconscious challenge

I myself had to face some realities that very deeply challenged me. I unknowingly loved and trusted my older sister way more than I should have. I paid a very heavy price and even now I am still working on recovering from the reality I faced about her.

I miss the person I thought she was, I miss the closeness I thought was there. I really never imagined the reality of what I experienced with her. I gave her qualities that were not real but more of a projection. This is very common, so much so that people can think of a character that an actor plays as being the character of the actor. In reality we associate the feeling we experience of this person in character.

I noticed how you tend to fashion a persona with your poetry. You did this with your wife. You tend to serenade her like you are creating her identity. The problem is this is not really going to change her as a person. Yet, when you do this you are creating the positive emotional in yourself. This is common in poets and musicians. It’s a part of their own soul that they share.

Dolly Parton is amazing when it comes to this. Dolly shares a lot of soul even in hard times. Dolly writes the lyrics and the music. Not all artists can do that. For example, Elton John is very gifted, yet he doesn’t write the lyrics. That being said once the lyrics and the music are all together he sings and performs it as though it’s all his own.

You get inspired through visuals and from that you spin a creation. It’s real to you, yet it’s within you, not in the person that inspires. In short you are a bit of a hopeless romantic. When you try to give another person this part of you, it’s YOU that IS and not them.

It's not fun being me.

Today, I just really wish I could run away

I have experienced that myself. It’s part of grieving and personal growth. Growing pains are real.

You have to step up and love yourself. You can learn ❤️

Make sure you see the positives. You like your job and the people you work for. You HAVE a job and a place to live. You can play and spend time with other musician friends. Also you are healthy and good looking. You have things to work with.

I cried over my wild birds and my bird feeders today.

I'm a total wreck.

So you visited your wife’s house?

No, I just miss the company of my birds.

I love birds too. I love animals period, always have. Love animals and nature.

Is there a nature park or zoo you can visit so you get exposure to animals?

Bless you sweet spirit

Good idea...

How are you today, @Open Eyes?

I’m hanging in there, worried about my brother who is fighting prostrate cancer that has spread and now he is doing a new radiation treatment. Don know how long he will have.

It’s important that you appreciate what you do have and find ways to enjoy your life.

May God bless you and your family

Are you playing tomorrow nite?

Rehearsal today. Next show October 2nd

@openeyes - bless you kind spirit

Visiting my parents this weekend

How are your parents doing? They in their 80’s?

Yes, and they're doing great, thanks for asking!!!!

Salt of the earth?

The sweetest...

Trying to have a good outlook today, but realizing thar my loyalty meant nothing kind of eats at me....