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I am trying to get divorced, but I really feel like I blew it today. I'm embarrassed about the whole thing.
![]() Anyway, at this meeting, I freaked out and did not behave well. I felt my H was trying to get out of something we'd already agreed upon, and I became very distrustful and defensive. I have a lot to distrust him for from the past, so the warning bells went off in my head, and I overreacted. I got upset. Then his lawyer said something that upset me and I reacted badly to that too and told him off. Twice. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() So we didn't settle today and instead I freaked out. My H said some stuff that totally took me by surprise and that's why I got really defensive. I think if I had known his plan beforehand, I could have mentally prepared for it better, but I didn't, so I felt like he was trying to hoodwink me. It made me feel like the time, several years ago, when he tried to make a major investment with a lot of our cash and only told me at the very end of the deal what it was all about only because he needed my signature. I refused, which did not make him happy. Same thing today. At the end he was seeming to renege on something we have already reached agreement on. I think he was just reacting that way because of my own reaction. But it upset me even more. I insisted I could not stay late past our allotted time, and that is unusual as we often run late, but I had another meeting for work right after. So as I was getting up to go and leaving them all there, my H was saying this stuff out of the blue that we are somehow supposed to resolve in 1 minute? So I said good-bye and left (hopefully I didn't stomp out). I am not feeling any better about this tonight. I wish it had never happened. I feel like I lost control in front of all these people and I am really embarrassed about that. I do want to get this divorce over with, but instead it seems I am perceived to be throwing stumbling blocks in our way. Why I ever thought I could do this is beyond me. ![]()
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Divorce is usually stressful for all of us.
![]() Some ideas: Maybe you could work up a sentence or two that you tell folks, explain briefly that you are under stress and confused, doing the best you can. You can tell them that you might need more time to understand things, that you might need to take breaks when feeling extra emotional, and that you are trying to cooperate. Are there any little things you can do to help yourself feel calmer next meeting? Have a favorite soda, wear a bracelet you like, anything like that? Ultimately your attorney and the others work for you, they are part of your team. Does your attorney know that you are afraid that your husband will try to trick you? Could a mediator help?
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It took a long time to put this thing together (mine took 23 years), and though it is nice to be substantially finished with the messiness, it's ok if it takes a little more time. You need to understand what's happening and not regret it later. There is an old carpenter's saying that goes "measure twice and cut once" and if it really is what you want, you will figure it out and get through it.
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I'm glad you didn't settle yet, as obviously you need to set your attorney straight on what you need.
Divorce is messy at best. When you add someone who is controlling to the mix, then it is even more difficult. You might do better with a male attorney, one whom the ex to be won't corner and put down (mentally if not visibly.) It doesn't matter if you did stomp out. You left and that was the RIGHT thing to do. Don't let them hurry you along, that is a ploy they use to pressure you to make rash decisions and overlook important details. Maybe the next meeting could be on one or two issues for now, at the moment, with the other stuff being piece-mealed also? Don't let them skirt you about on a zillion issues at once. Tell them it's ADA accommodation ![]() You did good! ![]()
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i know you want to finish sooner rather than later, but maybe suggest the two meetings over two weeks instead? ANd, hey it's ok to get overwhelmed or upset.. we all do sometimes. If you can remember this.. then it might help next time.. whenver you feel this way, ask for a few minutes break, either to clear your head, or to speak with your attourney for clarification... and you can always ask to have time to think things out.
much love.. you are SO brave.. ![]() ![]() ![]()
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Thank you, everyone.
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