Threw away the phentermine

I threw away the diet pills. I only took them once and I passed out at work and woke up with a bunch of coworkers around me. I gave them some lame excuse about allergy drugs lowering my blood pressure.

I am really trying to eat now and I haven't purged in a few days (which is good for me). I am having a really hard time sustaining weight though. Even when I am trying to eat more I still seem to lose. I went under 100 lbs yesterday and I am 5'9". My fiance doesn't even seem to notice that I am losing. The entire time I have been with his I have been under weight. He knows I used to have problems with an ED but I think he thinks I am over it. I cook for him and he doesn't even seem to notice that I normally don't eat the food. Well I am making a big meal tonight and I have promised myself I am going to eat it.

Another reason I think maybe I am still losing is all of the exercise. I normally run at least 5 miles a day and I also do some dancing or skating some days (I used to figure skate competitively now I just do it for fun). Should I stop exercising? It is really a good release for me and I hate to stop but I don't know if it is part of my illness.

For now I am trying to do this on my own. If I keep failing I think I will start seeing a therapist again but I really hate that thought. I do not want to go to an inpatient program again.

Nicole

*hug* OMG I'm so proud of you. ^__^

DON'T STOP EXCERSIZING! >_>

It's good for you! But you need to make sure you're making up for all the cals you burn, that may be why you're still losing, definitely.

If I figured it right, your BMI is 14.8. Try focusing on for now making healthy eating choices, you know? Whole grain heathly crap. Make sure you're getting all the vitamins and stuff you're needing too.

It's the decisions that are small you gotta try to win. Reward yourself when you make them, but don't be too hard on yourself if you don't.

I believe in you. ^_^ Keep us posted! *hug*

Thank you Mortimer you are very suportive! I am still doing good but still losing . I have trouble eating enough to sustain my weight. I get full after just a few bites of food. I am trying just to eat a bunch of small snacks all day. My appetite should be stimulated after a little while I guess. I am just not used to eating. I do find I have had some more energy though. I am trying. Thanks for your support!!

((((((((Mortimer)))))))))

Ehh. It's nothing. ^_^; *hug*

You're doing so well! Definitely keep up what you're doing. ^_^ Keep us all posted too, kay? We're all here for ya whenever ya need.