Princess Dianna

I was on my cancer forum tonight which is sacred to me . It a place where many suffering from the devastaing illness of cancer gather and help each other daily giving hope and crying with those who are losing the battle .
I have a very serious cancer that has a poor prognosis and no clear answeres one way or the other .

I happned to look over the new member area and saw a new joined member with the name .

PrincessDiana09

and suddenly I feared for my saftey .

I hate that i get trigered this way , and why does this have to be? someman somewhere needed to make fun of Princess Dianna. to bring her down. for being a strong beautiful caring compationate woman.

Princess dianna was treated poorly by the media
Her name has become a label for those who suffer from Bulimia. She was also labeled Borderline by those who needed her to be so.

severa; years ago I was on a forum where woemen were made fun of and given a coin name of Princess Di.

Everytime I see the name used I get scared because of the hatred some men use it . I guess it gives them some power they need because they lack it in thier lives.

.because I used to have Bulimia. even though it was 20 years ago it stil stays with me . People can stil hurt me with thier words and labels .

why is it that men hate women who have eating disorders ?

why hate people who suffer?

why hate people who are beautiful? both inside and out ?

I got so upset tonight thinking about this I almost hit a person who darted out on the street tonight in the rain
I thinK Ive hiT my bottom .
I keep saying this

I don't feel safe here I keep trying I don;t a person here hates me. Has for quite a while .

I can't be around angry frustrated men who debase women and think its okay

I feel scared .

I need to protect myself.
Patricia

(((((((Patricia)))))))
Are you feeling unsafe here? Or on the other forum?
I'm here if you need to talk.....you can pm me too.

kt

When ever I stand up for myself or others with a man, Yes I fear retaliation. I have experienced it . Its usually in the form of being made fun or or put down in some way. And more.

Patricia

You don't deserve to be treated that way.
But if you are having to stand up for yourself and others, that probably means the person you are standing up to is not nice or good, so it is not surprising that they would turn on you.
Keep your courage, and be strong.
Are you in physical danger? I hope not.

Kt thanks . Nothing real is happening just more a fear of it happening from a trigger . it has in the past.

belive it or not spammers come on cancer boards . we been haing some problems. Im on high alert. Bullying fears from the past .

Thanks for your concern.

Patricia



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