I don't know what this is.

I feel like I shouldn't post here cause in my mind, I tell myself that I don't have any issues.. however recently, with the help of people who like the point out the obvious, I've come to realize there is something wrong with my eating habits. I tell myself I have the tenancies of an ed but not a full blown out serious one that people need to pay attention to.

• I usually (not always) eat only 3/4s of a meal a day. I feel better if I only eat dinner and never finish all of it. I tell myself this is because I don't like to feel full, which is true, but even I know that's not the half of it.
  
• I feel more comfortable being technically underweight, I get extremely anxious if I go over a certain weight, and irritated if I stay the same for too long. I like the idea of being small, and find myself feeling inferior to people smaller but the same age, as I am.. I have a strong fear of gaining weight, most of my family is severely over weight and I can't stand to think that I might be like that one day.
  
• A little while ago I became obsessed with calorie counting and tracking everything I ate. I wanted to join a fitness group and in gym I pushed myself harder than all the other girls even though I wasn't capable. I got scared however when I remembered that those types of behaviors are linked to ed and stopped.. though however they haven't completely gone away.
  
• Three years ago a remark about how I was getting fatter tipped me over the edge and I lost about 20lbs in a very short amount of time which put me very underweight. Since then I have slowly built up to a less extreme, but never again up at the same number I started from.

There are a few other things, but I've never went to pills or throwing up or anything.. I don't think it's a big deal, or really anything... but other people don't seem to think so?

If you don't think it's a big deal.. then don't think what others are saying..
But i would say please stop thinking of being obese.. eat properly and stay healthy..
Tkcr..
Have a nice future..