[Crazydancinggirl87]

im on recovery but i cant stand having set backs an relapses its so intense lately its like i have to force myself to eat and keep down i literally force myself its not fun and lately cant sleep well on an empty tummy , why does my body not let me sleep until it gets food ???????///

(body separate then myself)
And my body lately is like giving up trying to signal to me to eat because it gets disappointed when it does not get anything or thinking its not worth it and that in order to get food body feels like it has to earn it and and not get hungry or go towards high calorie foods and to quickly digest if it does get food .

so namely my stomach shrunk and i get full fast but body wants to the food so it digests quickly so i cant thrw it up the small amount of it does get. and i overexcrcise to.

please help or give me tips please

[hrdcoreathlete]

Do not get discouraged. In recovery you are finally allowing your body to be where it wants to be. You are allowing your stomach to become what it once ways...and it is normal for your body to be all out of whack while in recovery. It is not easy and I think you knew that while attempting recovery. You are not alone, there is a whole heap of support out there waiting to help you out. I too often times cannot sleep on an empty stomach. I would encourage you to start small and work your way up...even if that means a cracker or piece of fruit. Allow your body to see you are making an attempt and work with it instead of against it...I know that sounds ridiculous but in the long run it makes a lot of sense.

[Crazydancinggirl87]

Originally Posted by hrdcoreathlete

Do not get discouraged. In recovery you are finally allowing your body to be where it wants to be. You are allowing your stomach to become what it once ways...and it is normal for your body to be all out of whack while in recovery. It is not easy and I think you knew that while attempting recovery. You are not alone, there is a whole heap of support out there waiting to help you out. I too often times cannot sleep on an empty stomach. I would encourage you to start small and work your way up...even if that means a cracker or piece of fruit. Allow your body to see you are making an attempt and work with it instead of against it...I know that sounds ridiculous but in the long run it makes a lot of sense.

sadly not that easy my ed is preventing my body from getting what it needs and wants ,ed hates HATES ed hates my body with a passion making recovery harder and im not strong enough .

[hrdcoreathlete]

Everybody is stronger than they give themselves credit for, whether you believe it or not.

[Crazydancinggirl87]

Originally Posted by hrdcoreathlete

Everybody is stronger than they give themselves credit for, whether you believe it or not.

i cant stand eating wish i did not have to eat
very hard to even take a few bites sometimes its soooo hard not sure i cant do anything that i probably wont be able to recover

im loosing weight ,hope , faith and believing in me

[tifferific]

Hey girl. Its me. You can do this you are over thinking it. I know it sounds crazy but its true. Somehow you need to find something that is louder than your anger fear and ed. Something good. It will come when you stop over thinking let some love for yourself in and others in. This will all take time. But you are smart and beautiful and it will happen. Be kind and gentle with you love T

[hrdcoreathlete]

Keep your head up, and I agree with tifferific, you are smart, beautiful and it will come. Allow peace to enter your life as you are making your way through a rough situation.

[Crazydancinggirl87]

Originally Posted by tifferific

Hey girl. Its me. You can do this you are over thinking it. I know it sounds crazy but its true. Somehow you need to find something that is louder than your anger fear and ed. Something good. It will come when you stop over thinking let some love for yourself in and others in. This will all take time. But you are smart and beautiful and it will happen. Be kind and gentle with you love T

i am really trying but i need all my PC friends to really be there and help me in any way they are able to or can help me im recommitted to ed recovery .


and is it weird my therapist gave me a hug for the first time after an intense family session, what does her giving a hug to me mean ????

[trixielou]

does the body out of whack thing apply to other traumatic changes in ur life such as splitting with a nerve wracking verbal abuser. i get diarrhea easy but the past couple of days have been really bad. also it seems like i never have an appetite except for sweets & lately havent even wanted those so much. i have to force a banana down & overall i just dont feel good. i exercise well when its warm i love to over do it too the food part doesnt bother me except where i get to the point of getting shaky from not eatin i would just like to feel good for once been a rough year hard on the nerves

[Crazydancinggirl87]

im not sure what you mean
im sorry can you clarify?

Originally Posted by trixielou

does the body out of whack thing apply to other traumatic changes in ur life such as splitting with a nerve wracking verbal abuser. i get diarrhea easy but the past couple of days have been really bad. also it seems like i never have an appetite except for sweets & lately havent even wanted those so much. i have to force a banana down & overall i just dont feel good. i exercise well when its warm i love to over do it too the food part doesnt bother me except where i get to the point of getting shaky from not eatin i would just like to feel good for once been a rough year hard on the nerves

[tifferific]

She gave you a hug to support you simply that. Try not to read into what you want from your relationship.she cant be a fill in for your mom no matter how much you may wish her to be. She can and will only be what you need till you can fly on your own.by the way she is flawed just like everyone. You need to build support from the people right there and right around you that love you. PS hugs and love T