[Jspantiny]

once u realize u really not in control at all...food controls u...alone, empty & resentful is still what u have inside...whats next? What do u do now?

[tinybrowngirl]

Originally Posted by Jspantiny

once u realize u really not in control at all...food controls u...alone, empty & resentful is still what u have inside...whats next? What do u do now?

Never give up! If it's anorexia you must face reality. As my granny used to say, "the devil is a liar"! and so is your own body sometimes. force yourself to look in the mirror and pray to see with true eyes where you are; just another day closer to deaths door. Lifes too short to lock yourself away with food! you can do this!!

[lindsey21]

it took me times and times again to get help but i was dying and i didnt know how much longer i could do this i wrote my dr a note and then he called me to ask me to come in . you cant do this alone

[Jspantiny]

Originally Posted by tinybrowngirl

Never give up! If it's anorexia you must face reality. As my granny used to say, "the devil is a liar"! and so is your own body sometimes. force yourself to look in the mirror and pray to see with true eyes where you are; just another day closer to deaths door. Lifes too short to lock yourself away with food! you can do this!!

I have been having trouble today, totally consumed w issue @ hand...my mind is on overdrive, overwhelmed...energy levels seem to be at stand still...trying to be healthy...scared of failing...

[Jspantiny]

Originally Posted by lindsey21

it took me times and times again to get help but i was dying and i didnt know how much longer i could do this i wrote my dr a note and then he called me to ask me to come in . you cant do this alone

Im in therapy...just weekly sessions tho...i struggle 24/7 w myself...ddnt realize how serious my situation had become until I admitted what was happening or recognized on paper my down hill spiral...i know body is in a vicarious state & I know what I have to do to stay "out"...but really I just want to go away...far away...im exhausted, tired of thinking...tired of looking at myself knowing how ridiculous it is...some of the thoughts I have...some ive had for years...y is it now that it all boils down and my life hinges on this issue alone. Has it been this all along that ive been battleling that has become my demise?