[NeverStoppedCrying]

Hi there.
I think I am kind of on the brink of an eating disorder.
Before and at school, I eating nothing, except maybe picking at my lunch and drinking something. I get home, and tell myself to face the hunger because I deseve it. Soon after that, though, I break the pattern and fall into what I think is a binge. It's like I can't stop eating. It's hard to tell if I'm eating too much or not, but it sure feels like it. Then I shove my fingers down my throat and try very hard to throw up. It has only worked once. I do not throw up much, even once I had the stomach flu and I did not throw up much at all. I always try, though, then get on the scale and make sure I haven't gained weight. I feel so guitly, I eat as little as I can the next day. I feel extremely fat and ugly. I'm not technically overweight, according to my doctor, but I think I am very close to being so. I am... big. I hate looking like I do; so fat and ugly. When I gain weight, I cut myself as a punishment.

So... that's that. :/

[MusicLover74]

I know where you're coming from. My eating patterns are similar.
I think what you need to try doing is spacing out your meals better. Eat a certain amount for breakfast, and an equal amount at lunch and dinner. This will also (probably- I'm no doctor! ) help your weight, I'd think. Controlled eating patterns benefit the body.
Try NOT to throw up, because it really doesn't help much.
If you really think you're overweight or big, then try exercising (in moderation!).
Good luck.

[Mysterygirl202]

This sounds like me. I don't think I have an ED. But I would always starve the next day... Or cut (which I've only been doing about a month or so just recently stopped)- and well I never actually tried to throw up... But I've th

[Mysterygirl202]

Thought about it a lot.