[suzzie]

ive been resisting strong thoughts lately to stop eating. or cut down to nearly nothing. im trying to ignore it. but i think in the end. i will end up doing it. ive done it in the past. i dont do it alot. it just seems to work. but i know its not good. thats why im trying not to. but i think i will again. i know i will. how can you stop yourself from this. last time i ate nothing but water, diet pop, and rice cakes. will probably do that again. its easy. and looks to others like im eating. the odd thing about this. is that although i want to loose some weight. i dont want anyone to notice it. ever. and i dont want my t to say anything. maybe if im careful. she wont notice. i hate it when someone does.

[suzzie]

this must be nothing. sorry.

i can be so stupid.

[brokenlegsofthelamb]

there's .a lot of reasons we may not get replies to our posts right away.
sometimes people don't know how to respond. also, there are times we're
stretched to our limits, and aren't able to support others. that's okay, too. from what you posted, it looks like you KNOW what you need to do,
but you don't want to do it. ah, i've BEEN where you are, and STILL find
myself WANTING to not eat. i REMIND myself that I NEED to eat, and usually do. i think about past consequences, which helps. also, i keep a
journal so i can sort things out. take care!

[brokenlegsofthelamb]

Originally Posted by suzzie

this must be nothing. sorry.

i can be so stupid.

you are NOT stupid! you are just STRUGGLING.