[Broken_Wings87]

Hi
This is my first post here and really the first time I've actually talked about my ED. I really don't know what to say....I've been struggling with Anorexia for about 12 years and have been in and out of hospitals for about five of those years trying to get on top of it, but it never seems to work I slip back into disordered eating a few days after I'm relased from hospital.....I feel so alone and scared.

[doggiedo]

Hi Broken Wings87 - why do you think you keep slipping back? Do you have some type of family or structured support once you are out of the hospital? Are you seeing a counselor or a team of docs that can help you monitor how you are doing?

[ickydog2006]

Hi Broken, I'm sorry you're feeling so alone right now. I thought I would never have to deal with anorexia ever again (it's been almost 10 years without it), but have recently started dieting and it's taking over again. Do you have any support outside the hospital. It's been really hard for me to be honest lately with my husband about my struggles, but I know if I don't talk to someone who can help keep me on track, I'll never make it.

[Woundedheart1]

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Originally Posted by Broken_Wings87

Hi
This is my first post here and really the first time I've actually talked about my ED. I really don't know what to say....I've been struggling with Anorexia for about 12 years and have been in and out of hospitals for about five of those years trying to get on top of it, but it never seems to work I slip back into disordered eating a few days after I'm relased from hospital.....I feel so alone and scared.

Hi I can relate to where your coming from. I've been sick since I was 7 now in my late 30's. It started for me in gymnastics and kept on over the years with A multitude of other sports. I also have gone thru treatment many time and slipped back almost immediately as well. My family believes I've never " bought in" yo the programs but I think more of it has to do with fear and not being able to get to the root of that fear and deal with it. It's something I cope with with my T and she's brought to my attention some of my irrational thoughts and fears that I've believe to be so real for so long. It's helped a lot. Try looking deep inside at what makes ED tick for you. That's what I try to do and write it down to read and go over with my T so she can wk thru it with me. you are not alone! I relate and will respond.

[Broken_Wings87]

Thank you all for responding.
My family try to be supportive but don't really know how. I'm currently on the hunt for a new T as my current one has pretty much given up on me and refuses to see me anymore. I'm glad to know there are others that can realate (not glad that you are struggling like me, but glad to know someone understands)