[xIxAmxSadx]

Hello.

I'm back on here.

Basically, I just need to get some things off my chest.

So, first of all, I have been doing better with my depression. It hasn't been that bad for a while. Which is good.

But recently it has come back. I don't know why I am depressed now. I just sort of am. Some part of me thinks that I actually like being depressed, which sounds crazy I know, but somehow, my depression feels like, somewhere I can be safe. So I feel like I'm making myself depressed. But I don't really know.

Anyway, recently I have been really obsessed with my body image, I don't want to eat, and I haven't been. But tonight, I got really, really, bad hunger pangs and I just broke down and ate everything and anything that contained sugar that was in my house. I have a horrible sweet tooth and I just could't control it anymore.

Now, I just feel awful. I feel extremely full, and fatter than ever.

I just feel so, so alone. And I'm just going crazy.

I'm a mess.

[AngelWolf3]

I understand about the depression. It's like you don't want to be depressed but it is all you are used to knowing, and it is comfortable.

Glad to see you posted here, keep reaching out/venting, it maybe will eventually help.

I know it's probably been told before, and I am kinda a hypocrite for saying it, but if you try to keep your blood sugar levels up by eating throughout the day, your body won't rebel against you like that and make you eat all the sugary stuff.

Like I said, I need to practice what I preach, but something to tuck in the back of your mind, I hope that is okay.