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Ermm... well like for a while now I feel like I've been lying to everyone about my progress and stuff telling them all that I'm doing well and eating and I haven't been purging, but then it's like... ugh. I need to tell them the truth but it just... it REALLY isn't that easy and like... I feel like if I just start fixing the problem myself then there's nothing really to be told but that's almost as hard as telling them. I have an appointment with my dietitian and normal doctor in like... four hours actually and I just KNOW they're gonna be like OMG You've lost weight! Have you been eating? Purging? Then they're gonna look at my throat and it's gonna be all red and stuff and they'll ask my mum to step out of the room and be like Okay, just tell me the truth. Have you been purging? And I'll be like No! I swear! Seriously, I haven't! or I could be like Okay... yeah I did it a couple times and I really didn't eat that much (we just got back from vacation and eating out ALL THE TIME didn't work well for me) but I can't do that because it's letting everyone down and I just can't do that plus I mean... I've been lying this whole time about getting better and of course my therapist that worked with me on my ED just HAD to move to Poland and she was the only t that I've EVER trusted. I just kind of despise myself right now because I ALWAYS dig myself into these situations and like... then I never fix them and like. ugh. Help? I seriously need advice I feel so lost.

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[Eevvee]

What is you're reason for not telling anyone though? Are you afraid, or embarrassed? What's most important is YOUR safety and I'm sure your loved ones will stick by you every step of the way if you would just let them in on what's going on. I'm sure that you are aware of the dangers of not eating or purging. (Rotting teeth, acne, dark circles under eyes, weight GAIN, burning digestive tract, acid reflex disease, heart attack, and even death) Know that the people around you are NOT there to judge you. Especially the professionals, they are they to help you and encourage you to overcome your disorder. The first step to getting better is admitting that you have a problem with it.
I am a recovered bulimic and in my experience, my family finding out about it was the best thing that ever happened. They helped me and supported me every step of the way. I talked to a counselor to try to find the cause of my severe self-esteem issues.

The most important thing to remember is that the majority of people with eating disorders are infact UNDER weight but they suffer from a illusion that makes them believe that they are a lot more over weight than they really are. What is more important to you?? Finding a man you will love you even if you are a few pounds above average, but healthy, or being tiny and thin, and finding a guy that wants to be with you mainly because of that? I hope that you open up and recover well. <3 <3 <3

[Gr3tta]

I hope you will tell the truth. Your whole life has a chance to be better if you address things truthfully and honestly now. Do you want to be purging when you're 20? When you're 30? Will you be able to concentrate through school? Will you skip going to class because you don't have enough energy to walk across campus? Do you want to be vomiting in front of your husband or wife? With your kids hearing you? Will you be healthy enough to have kids? Will you even be alive?
Set yourself up for success. Address this when you have the opportunity. Give yourself a chance. You're allowed to make mistakes and have set backs. Don't let them derail your recovery completely. Address it, and get to move on.

[eskielover]

If you make honesty your policy rather than even lying by omitting telling something.....you will end up with a better successful & less stressful life in general not just dealing with your ED. Being dishonest is a life style you don't want to choose....it will only end up destroying you in years farther down your life let alone what its doing with your ED now.