[ChefMagoo]

i'm really curious what all of your opinions on this site/forum are. i hope no one takes this the wrong way, but do you find this discussion board (particularly the ED section) helps or hinders your progress? after my last post, i felt like i was starting to slip a little even after being so good with my food issues for a long time. it's like it was all i could think of. i guess it just stirred up old feelings.

but anyway, my questions is, do regular users of this site ever get the feeling that people are fueled by one anothers experiences (good or bad)?

[precious things]

I never really get triggered here but maybe it's because I am older an so far into my disorder right now I'm not looking for triggers (for me, I think I get more triggered when I am not very engaged in the Ed and feel like I am
missing it...basically, I want to be triggered so I let myself). I see a lot of silly terms like "Ana " and "Mia" and I find it weird and immature - It just has this weird personalization to it that seems more about being trendy or something. Try purging out your teeth and then read how someone is missing "Mia".

As for this particular board, I find it lacking in real discussion or much in terms of interaction (I usually post on the therapy forum but obviously have Ed issues which brings me back here). It doesn't help coming here, but it's not hurtful either ( if people were giving out numbers and weights then I would be SUPER triggered, but that usually doesn't happen.

[wiltedxdaisy]

I guess for me it really depends on the post. Some of them I find triggering, and others I find very inspirational, like when I read about someone who is fighting for or is in recovery or has made great progress.

[Victoria'smom]

I don't normally come here unless I'm cycling with BP I have "normal" eating issues when not cycling. Now I'm going to sound bat-**** crazy but honest:

"Ana" and "Mia" show up when I'm cycling. "Ana" for me is a full on, person size, screaming negative crap, I swear if I can get close enough to her I can punch her in the face hallucination as real to me as anyone I know personally. "Mia" is more an auditory hallucination that try to calm me down, tells me just appeases "Ana" to get her to shut up for a little, stop my meds because that's what's making me 'fat', I should divorce my husband because he controls my eating (making sure I get some kind of liquid down within 30 hrs.) and that's what Pdoc, T, and my husband want, and they want to make me fat. Then screams at "Ana" that I'll fix it by purging and promises "Ana" that I won't mess up and eat again. I have "normal" eating issues when not cycling.

As for it being triggering it doesn't really effect me much.