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By normal I don't mean healthy, because it obviously isn't, but is it common for ED people to feel differently in this situation.
Today I put a Post It over a photo of a famine victim in a magazine. That photo didn't make me feel horrified or despairing. It made me feel envious of that person. It made me think "I wish I were that skinny." I know it sounds horribly shallow and selfish. After all, that person did not choose to go without food. People should be able to get enough food. I understand that. It's just that every time I see something like this in the media, I'm reminded how most people think that emaciated people are much more deserving of kindness and sympathy than well-fed people. I feel like I'm constantly competing with other people in who's more worthy of sympathy -- and I'm always losing. They get the rewards and adoration, and I get scolded about how lazy and greedy I am and I should be more appreciative of my good fortune. I desperately want to be one who is worthy, not the one who is scolded and shamed. |
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I've done that before. It's just a sign of how bad your ED is.
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I have also done that,I know how that feels. I've also gotten envious of little girls and their bodies. It just shows how much your ED affects your life.
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Yes, I think these things are normal, that picture was obviously triggering for you so you tried to keep it 'out of sight, out of mind."
I used to do that in a sense when I Was trying to remain sober and get over using coke- I couldn't watch any movies or tv shows or movies on tv with scenes with drugs in it. . . The same goes for pictures or scenes of people gorging themselves- triggers my bulimic tendencies that I do a good job of keeping buried about 80% of the time. ![]() |
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