so so so scared to be weighed tomorrow!

I had a bit of a relapse and last week recommitted to recovery... My t expects me to have gained weight this week and I am so scrared to see it! (I don't do blind weight). I'm scared to have lost and I'm scared to have gained and I just don't want to go to my t tomorrow!

I once told my friend "You can only imagine what its like to have your whole body screaming at you that youre so ugly and fat and that you have to stop eating so much/certain foods and just IGNORING it. And your body just yells louder and louder till it rings in ur ears all day and its hard to hear other things and to concentrate on anything else. And the screaming is just STUCK there cuz ur not doing what it says Till you get to a point where acting on the screaming isnt an option for you and not acting on it is just burning out your insides.

You are trying to get better and a relapse is going to happen once in a while. Go to your T tomorrow and just see what your weight is. It may not be as bad as you think. Worrying certainly isn't going to change anything so take it easy Sweetie and let tomorrow take care of itself.

I too dread being weighed, each time I worry about breaking the scales, I have a negative view of my body. I relapsed several times over the years, and many people with eating disorders will relapse. It's a known fact. Tell the person you're seeing tomorrow about how you're feeling and what being weighed feels like. Don't give up.

Hugs <3 It gets better, I promise.