I dont know if i do or not but anyway.
I am constanly thinking about food and i hate eating and if i do eat i feel SUPER guilty and also if i eat i feel like i have to exercise to get rid of it. I cant eat normally i am either binge eating or starving myself and i havent made myself throw up but i have tried and failed. there is more but i find it very difficult to explain. I know you guys cant diagnose but i am just wondering if anyone experiences anything similar.

[kaliope]

it sounds to me that you could be experiencing symptoms of an eating disorder. please see someone about it before it gets out of control.

Thank you for your reply. I am seeing a psychologist and have told him i am not eating but i havent mentioned the exercising part and some of the other stuff.

[Igenio]

To me it sound slike you have a eating disorder. It's a good thing you are taking this to your therapist

I will try I am not sure I will be able to explain it very well but I will try. But I am also scared to tell him everything I know I probably should but it is still scary.

[RisuNeko]

You could try looking up a list of eating disorder behaviours and write down all of the ones that apply to you and bring that in to your therapy session. That way you wouldnt have to strugggle to explain yourself. Don't get any ideas from your ressearch though! it's important for your therapist to know all of what you're doing and feeling and thinking when it comes to food and weight.

Thank you I will try I guess it is hard because part of me doesn't want anyone to stop me doing this stuff.

[finding_my_way]

it will be difficult if you do not want to seek help for it. that is common in the early months/years of it.

it took me three years to get help...but by then i was so unwell that it made it more difficult..also because where i live, trying to get adequate treatment is very hard..so that is another thing to think of....do you want to keep going down that path and in the end not be able to get the right level of help? not saying you won't, but in many countries it is hard to get help...and that is part of the reason why people stay unwell for so long too.

it is best to get help for it as soon as possible so you have a better chance at getting it managed again. disordered eating/eating disorders also affect a lot of other mental health issues and cause a degree of mild to severe physical issues, so for so many reasons, i would encourage you to get help as soon as you can for it.

i would hate to see another person struggle for years and then not be able to get the adequate help for it later on or end up with physical issues as a result and really lose out on a lot of important life events because of the horrible cycle you get stuck in being focused on food and weight loss.

Thank you i just have so much going on right now and it is the only thing that makes me feel even a little bit in control i just i am so tired and trying to keep everything together but i dont know that it is working.

[eskielover]

Actually it takes more control to eat healthy & keep the weight healthy than it does to have the ED control from what I found....it was a lot easier to restrict than to eat healthy & stay at a healthy weight.

Hope you can sort through this with your T...know it's not easy

thank you i will try and talk to him.