why do i eat so much

i feel so fat...... my whole life ive never weighed over 120 pounds..... but within a year in a half i went from 106 to 156 .. i thought it was the meds my pdoc had me on.. but she took me off the risperdal that was making me gain some weight.... and i havent took that for about a year now....... im always hungry and im always eating.... but ive been that way my whole life...... why now am i gaining so much weight.... i try to cut back on my food but i just cant seem to stop eating.. even when im not hungry i just think of food and there i am eating.... my b/f is on a diet and has lost alot of weight...... and i just feel so fat and i feel guilty eating ....i feel like im doing something wrong by eating...... like right now as im writing this im not hungry but i want food...... i guess you could say its like an addiction..... does that make sense?

Yes skittles, it makes total sense. Eating is an addiction for some people. You stated that you've gone from 106 to 156, but numbers don't always mean everything. How tall are you? Is your lifestyle active? That kind of thing can be much more important than numbers sometimes.

"Addiction" is the perfect word for it sometimes. Eating can be an addition, it's satiating effect can be the greatest comfort sometimes even in the most seemingly random situations. Are you under stress in your life right now? You dont' have to answer but that kind of question is good to consider in perhaps finding the root of your desire to eat.

(((skittles)))
wishing you the best,
*lil

Skittles,

This is off topic, but I love your new siggy!! It is so cool.

I've been struggling with overeating the last five years myself.

((((((Skittles))))))

EJ

i havent been under any stress lately.... im only 5/3.. a chart that i was looking at says im overweight..... and no im not very active..... i have no energy and im always really tired..... ppl say that i look good now that i gained a little weight that i was to skinny before but i dont feel like i do.. most of the time i feel fat and guilty for gaining.....

Hey skittles I'm in the same boat, I've gained 12 lbs this year. Can't seem to get a grip on myself, don't want to buy new clothes but I'm running out of things wear.SUCKS!

Im in the same boat as you both I same to eat all the time even when Im not hungry then when I have eaten I hate my self for doing so I weighted 103lb when I moved in mid jan & I now weigh 121lb I have gained soooooooooo much weight & im sooooooooo unhappy I have about 3 pairs of jeans that fit me now & thats about it but I will not buy any new ones but soon I will not get in them but I just cant stop eating I wish I could go back to the end of last year when I was skinner & was losing weight I never felt hungery & never ate

For your height i'm thinking 106 might be underweight? If that's the case then you don't need to feel guilty for gaining..but rather feel happy for your health. Take it one step at a time, perhaps find your healthy BMI (and weight at which it would ocurr) and aim for that. Eating more and having less energy..i don't know much about this or about you but it could happen with depression or any other kind of mental strain. You said you're not under stress so, maybe it's something subconscious having to do with your boyfriend's diet?

just trying to offer some hopefully helpful ideas...good luck.
*lil

Sorry you have this problem. It helped me to write down what I feed myself. I write a affirmation of not eating more, even when I know the medicine is making lions roar in my tummy.

Otherwise, I will stop taking my helpful meds. I too can not tolerate, the large amount of weight gained through medicine therapy for my mental illness, and will opt for being "mental," rather than becomming 15 pounds or more overweight.

Don't get lied to. If you don't prefer the large amount of weight gain due to specific medicines, tell you doctor to put you on one (not many to choose from) that has little possibilty of weight gain. Yes true, being bi-polor is a precarious type feeling thing, but becomming endlessly overweight, feeling grossly crippled from mass amounts of body tissue pasting itself, especially around your upper ribs area, (gained only because of the medicine itself- weather you eat like a bird or not,) will ruien your whole life. Atleast it did mine. I ended up having other health problems due to this unexpected obesity. (Heart problems, swelling of the extremities) Just weight it out before you "stay on" those pills they gave you.

I want to stay mentally stable. I have lost alot of relationships, I still go to school working on a writing degree, don't really have a fantastic life, don;t take the pills that would make my mind stabilize, but I am a healthy weight, exercising, eating the better way, as I did before the medication game, and pretty happy, even though I definately act odd, having bi-polor.