I've been trying to lose weight since quitting smoking and it's NOT WORKING!!!!!!!!!
I'm really frustrated and feeling disappointed that nothing I'm doing seems to be working. I'm consistently working out and I'm eating healthier but I'm still chunky. What's up with that? I know I'm getting older and my metabolism has slowed down but dag, it's like it's totally stopped altogher because I cannot lose weight!
I'm so desperate at this point I'm thinking about laxatives because the throwing up thing didn't work for me. I cannot stand to be this fat anymore. I want my 115 lbs body back!!!!!!!!!!!

I know this may sound kinda weird... but are you getting enough sleep? when I use my Cpac machine (because of sleep apena) the weight comes off...

other things I've read - the right mixture of calcium/magnesium/vit D... the calcium helps weight loss - you might research that...

just a couple of thoughts..

Thanks Freewill, no, I don't sleep well. It turns out that as you get older you have to pee at night more for some reason and I find it hard to get back to sleep.
Getting old really bites!

[Maven]

There are recommendations for dealing with having to pee at night. I don't remember what all of them are (ask your doctor), but I know part of it is to not have anything to drink for about three or four hours before bed.

As for your weight, it might help to reduce caffeine, if that's a problem. You say you eat healthier and exercise, but do you count calories, watch fat intake, things like that? Here's a link to a free list of fat-burning foods. Maybe that will help. Good luck--I know being overweight sucks!

Hi Maven,
No, I don't exactly count them, I sort of estimate how much my intake is. I guess I should be more observant of that and how much fat I eat. Something tells me I'm going to have to cut down on some of my favorite snacks. Nuts. I'm also really into flavored rice right now. Got a rice cooker and everything. A serving of rice has over 100 calories. That surprised me, I mean, there's nothing to rice-it seems like it would be like 25 calories per serving. Oh well.
Grrrrr, gotta start counting calorie and fat intake.
Thanks again.

God, I'm soooooo fat and I can't stop eating. What the heck is the matter with me? I just want to keep eating. Even when I'm full. Why?

Grrrrrrr!!!! I'm getting this under control. I'm constantly eating apples now. How fattening could THEY possibly be? GRRRRRR!

[littlemissjess]

I want to have a nice body. I'm almsot 5'4" and I weigh about 120. I want like 100. Ugh. I love fruit so I used to eat fruit when I get hungry. But now I'm learning to eat less. Today I ate:

2 slices of pizza
a little thing of nachos
and a reese's pd cup.

Today I ate,
2 apples
1 big fat cheeseburger
A few french fries
A salad with lots of ceaser dressing

And that's all for now. I think I kind of blew it with the big fat cheeseburger and the fries, what do you think?

I haven't exercised in 3 days. I lost my enthusiasm because it feels like I'm not getting anywhere. I'll start again tomorrow. I just needed some time to "regroup".

The good thing is between taxes having to be paid out and my car being inspected and the costs for the odds and ends, I am tapped out financially, soooo, I can't afford to go food shopping this week! That IS actually a GOOD thing 'cause, if I don't have food, I can't eat and if I don't eat, I lose weight!!!

[Raindrizzle]

wow....today...

I ate, chicken, mash potatoes, and beans with bread.
threw that up.

Then...

I ate, Top Roman
Threw that up

And bein really athletic and sporty, I worked out hard.

Yet, im still fat. weird huh

I tried throwing up after eating but it makes my throat hurt. This diet thing is not working for me. I like eating!!! I'm going to try laxatives and see if that helps any. I haven't exercised today yet but I will, eventually.
Today, I'm really doing "good",
I had...
1 tootsie roll
half cup of peanuts
half cup of cashews
a few mini pretzels
4 slices of pizza without the crust (dogs get the crust)
1/2 bottle of ginger ale
a tiny bit of salad with ceaser dressing

I should have stopped before the 3rd piece of pizza but I couldn't help it, I was sooooo hungry. I could still go for another slice but I'm willing myself not to. That's all I'm going to eat today. Maybe another tootsie roll.
I'm going to exercise once this pizza digests. My belly is so fat but it is soooooo happy!

[Raindrizzle]

just curious jax, what type of eating disorder do you have? from the sounds of it you really arent sure and your tryin out different options. If you dont really have one then stop any harmful dieting because it can lead to severe problems and if you do have a mild ED get help before it heightens.

Oh, do I have to have an eating disorder to write here? I'm sorry. I just want to lose the weight I gained from quitting smoking and I'm frustrated because I can't, so I'm trying out temporary fixes until I lose the weight I need to because diet and exercise isn't helping me.

I'll stop writing here. Sorry. I'll write about my diet woes elsewhere. I didn't realize this was for serious ED only. My mistake.

[Raindrizzle]

Whoa, okay first of all, I was not asking in a disrespectful way whatsoever. I didn't know that advice isn't welcome here. I was only asking in concern because I was just like you when i started, minus the smoking. After many feeble attempts to diet the healthy way, the only restort left for me was this crap. And I HATE, absolutely HATE to hear of cases just like mine. So sorry for showing any concern. And sorry you took my message totally the wrong way.

I can have a nasty attitude, Raindrizzle. I get defensive when I think someone is insulting me. I must have misunderstood what you wrote. I apologize.
Thanks for being concerned. I appreciate it.
(((((((Raindrizzle)))))))))

[Raindrizzle]

Nah, its alright. It happens, my family is the same way. I read your message and tried to send one back but it wouldn't let me for some reason. But yeah, its all good. I just really dont want to see you (although i dont know you) to end up with an ED like mine, I read your profile and I really wish you the best of luck with everything!

[Oryan]

I'm wondering and let me know what you two think. Anorexia is a state of mind that drive this obsessive dieting and exercising and other bad behaviors but from what I can tell is that Anroexia isn't something a person can just be at will. If a person could be anorexic at will than we all could just stop this anorexic/bulemic obsessivness in our tracks... at will... but we can't. Its driven by something very deep within us that we can't just change or control. Seems rediculous but, man, I hit an all time low today of 117. Is this going to stop? I think I'll pig out for dinner here so tomarrow mornings reading won't be so low and my average won't go down.

Oryan

Hmmm, my ribs still there... 1, 2, 3... 6, 7... yup, there all there.

[Raindrizzle]

Well, actually.....your right. When I was in therapy and counseling, my doctors said that ED's are beyond our self will. Many begin by thinking that it's something that for once in their life they can control. However, in actuality it's controlling you. It becomes second nature, you do it sub conciously and slowy but surely, whatever ED you have, completely engulfs you and succombs your mind to its condescending ways.

[lil_bit]

Well, I'm not necessarily part of the "you two" to which your question was directed Oryan, but thought i'd put in my two cents anyway =P

Some people do bring an ed upon themselves of their own will. (pro ana websites etc are examples of this). Some think that they can just use it as a "get slim quick" diet type thing and then stop whenever they please...but then fall into the trap and under the relentless control of the ed.

It's kind of an example of when the creation outgrows and overpowers the creator I think.

Hi, sorry it's taken so long for me to respond. I hear what you're saying. It's very powerful being able to eat whatever you want and not worry about it because you know you're just going to barf/poop it all out later. I can see the lure of it. Especially when it comes to pizza and ice cream. I'm tempted to go and eat some more pizza and then just barf it up. It's so tempting.

[Direction]

Something to consider - throwing up doesn't really help you loose weight - lots of calories are absorbed before it comes out. Generally speaking throwing up tends to maintain or gain weight.

Little Miss - I would be concerned about 100 - my ex hit 99 and was 5' 4.5" - she didn't look healthy at all. Here eating disorder was out of control at this point.

Avoid any unhealthy eating and purging habits - see a nutritionalist to help plan something out..

Hi Direction,
I didn't eat the pizza, I had an apple instead. But how can you absorb calories from the food when you vomit it up right after eating it? It hasn't even been broken down yet.
I don't do this habitually-it's something I tried for awhile but then stopped. It is tempting though-I mean, really- because you have the lure of indulging in all that yummy good food but then vomiting it right back up so you don't get fat from it.
It's really frustrating these days. It seems you can't do ANYTHING without suffering some horrible consequence for it. I mean, really. Can't drink-become an alcoholic, can't smoke-you'll get cancer, can't eat-you'll get fat, with sex-you can get aids, can't go on shopping sprees, you'll go broke, can't drive fast, you'll get road rage and kill someone, can't sleep a lot, you'll lose your job...
It goes on and on. It helps me to understand the control aspect of a eating disorder. I keep having to give up a lot of the things I like to do because it's BAD for me. I want to do something bad for me just out of rebellion at this point but I don't want to have to suffer the consequences. Is that so wrong to indulge/purge every once in awhile?

[Direction]

Good for you...

Honestly - I don't know if the absorbtion thing is fact - my ex wife had some books lying around that I've read - personal accounts which pointed to this...Me ex seem to believe this to be true. When she did B/P she tended to gain weight.

Please, please stay away from the idea of purging - it will become an obsession that you won't be able to stop...

See a nutritionalist who can help plan out something that works for you - including it a desert - remember you can always have another desert the next day. Make sure the N knows what foods trigger you to over eat.