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I haven't really talked about this much. I think becuase I'm ashamed and I'm afraid someone's going to take away my food. Ever since I dated a guy who was emotionally and physically abusive I've been binging badly. I'm over 300 pounds now and I hate it. I've always been a bit of a binger but after I had my daughter and got into that relationship it has gotten out of hand. My money sit. has been bad and when I don't have much money I panic and eat. I seem to be afraid we'll run out of food. I know part of it is because I was locked in a basement without food for days when I was a kid, but it seems to be more than that too. It seems to be a ton of things. But I don't want to be obese anymore. But I know I have so many things to deal with around my eating. I'm afraid I'll spend my younger years obese instead of being able to enjoy feeling free and being able to do things that I can't now. Arg...Can anyone relate?????