weight going up and cannot stop eating UGH

I am back to eating a lot again....I have been doing it so much lately that I am gaining what weight I lost back again....I HATE it... I am 5'5 and I am 47 and I weigh 215 and I hate myself so much.....when I look in the mirror and see myself, then I hate what I see and end up eating more and more.....UGH I have tried and tried to stop but can't....I hate being so fat....have been heavy all my life....UGH life I hate my life...

Oh dear. I'm currently on the increase too.

I'm not sure what to say concerning it all though; as people have said to me to record my meals, do something else when i get the impulse to eat, and excersise.

It all seems useless in my opinion- and i'm guessing from that post, you're feeling pretty damn useless about it all too.

Hello Hope4me2,

I also battle the weight issue. I feel for me it is a combination of the meds, having low thyroid and in the most my compulsive overeating. I find that I eat much out of emotion or for 'comfort', then the quilt followed by eating more from the guilt feelings.

I find at times I can eat slower if I really try, only many times I realize I am eating so fast and so much I am almost not even chewing the food. I get embarrased for the way I eat so fast so often.

I have not really worked in Therapy on my weight/compulsive overeating and I live alone and stay to myself and at times 'forget' that for many people a 'serving' is much less than I consume at times. I get very depressed when I really overeat. I beilieve most people are able to make a Large bag of Potato Chips like the 'family value size' last for the 'family' of like of 3 or 4 persons for days or weeks, while I can have the bag gone in a matter of hours.

I am 5'11" and a year aga I was weighing at 351 Pounds. (Morbidly Obese) and still MObese I cant seem to control my hunger/depression cycle. I sit here this very minute and in my mind am thinking of how hungry I am and of all this I have said I will go into the kitchen and eat when I click the 'Submit' button...

I am thinking my only option now is gastric bypass or stapeling if my stomach. I wish you strength and to let you know you are not alone in this overeating cycle. I am trying to eat smaller portions or not bring it into the house. I just want to be able to buy clothing in retail stores again and not from a catalog. I am going to try and see about a support group I have heard of called 'Over Eaters Annomonus' and try to get help there.

Best wishes to you and your struggle. I just wanted you to know that someone can relate.

take Care--

thanks you two....it is a comfort to know that others hear me and understand my struggles.....
I hate hearing exercise and eat less.....nothing works when you do not have the want to or the energy to do anything....YES I am feeling pretty useless right now....
thanks you two...

I too am gaining weight. I am constantly waking up every 2-3 hours at night craving food. I go and work out every day, twice a day but can't seem to control the food intake at night. I am not hungry at all during the day and have to force myself to eat, but when night comes, look out! I can't control myself anymore like I used to when I was in the midst of my disorder.

I am sorry that you are not feeling wel and feeling useless. I apologize if my reply caused you to feel useless, I had not intention of that. I worry when I dont understand things all the way. I hope you are feeling better today. Take Care-Kris

(((((((Hope4me2)))))))

I can't offer a lot of help i'm afraid, only the comfort of a fellow sufferer. I've struggled with compulsive overeating and my weight almost all my life. I've tried most every diet. I was going to a nutrionist in addition to the T and it seemed to be helping. the nutritionist left for a new job 6 wks ago. i know i'm an emotional eater, and things are definitely a little out of control right now, including my eating. I guess the biggest help was OA and perhaps I should consider going back there. I know my therapy goes better when my eating is under control, or is it vice versa? Never realized this psych stuff was so hard...

I am gaining weight so BAD and my clothes are getting tight again... UGH hate it and it makes me want to punish myself by cutting or not eating at all.....
hate myself so much

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I've been there so often. I don't cut...but retain such feelings of guilt & shame. But I have learned that there is more to me than my appearance.

Cymbalta and menopause BOTH are clobbering my efforts to keep off weight. I am loosing now. Slowly. But what an effort it is. GADS!!!! I havta just remind myself to take one itty bitty day at a time.

My brother took his own life in January. I still have not accepted it. I keep thinking..."Why"..& "what if" or "If only."
Years ago..when I was still living at home..I was the "fixer". I watched over my younger brothers like a mother hen. I wish I could have been there to stop him. It replays in my mind over & over. Very hard not to think of it.

Please don't hurt yourself. OK?!

~Dottie

I have a really hard time being around anywhere that does not have any 'healthy' foods, like the picnics my mental-health housing has for their members...I don't go to them,it's 'people, places, things' for me..I went to an eating disorders program in Tulsa, Oklahoma last year...the best thing that's ever happened to me. I am now learning to love myself. It's hard with all the cruel people out in this world, saying nasty things about my size...but I consider the source(also the media still pushes THIN is in!)...If others think I'm ugly that's on them.