[nervousnellie]

Hi,
After gaining 15 pounds, I have had it with my weight. I am not really over weight that much, but don't like the way I look and feel.

Anyway, last Friday I went out to eat and ate a TON. When I got home, because I felt so sick and full, I went upstairs and made myself throw up. I instantly felt better. (Even though the act itself is gross).

Well, I have done it every day since then. Sometimes twice a day. And once I decided to do it, I eat anything I want knowing I am going to toss it.

Is this how people start to become bulimic or anorexic? Or am I just going through a phase? I don't want to keep doing it, but it seems like such an easy fix. I am a little worried. I have an addictive personality.....I am a recovering alcoholic and pill popper. So, I know this is dangerous territory. Why can't I just exercise like a normal person who wants to lose weight? That thought alone makes me sick. I am pretty lazy physically.

Thanks to all.
Nellie



"This too shall pass"

[inkblot]

This is something I've been doing off and on since February this year. It happens to me in phases, it seems, like when feeling more stressed. And yeah, it could be considered a potential problem with what you mentioned. I'm in a phase of this right now and it's hard. I'm under a lot of stress and this is one way how I've been dealing with it. My T isn't much for it. He's watched my eating habits for a while now because sometimes I eat, sometimes I don't and may lose weight. Watch yourself, and tell your T about what is happening. I told my T through a note that I dropped off at the office for him because I was too embarrassed.

[nervousnellie]

Thanks for the reply. I will try to tell her. I see her next week.
I don't think this is something I would do all the time, but the fact that I would do it all scares me.

And i know its only been a week. But I haven't lost any weight because of it at all.

Maybe the scale is trying to tell me to STOP! Its not working!!

Thanks Inkblot!!
NN



"This too shall pass"

[itsjustme111]

nervousnellie; I think this is the starting point to a eating disorder. I have struggled with this for years and I am very sick right now. Often though, a eating disorder is used to cover up the real underlying problem. Its a distraction for many to try and forget about other issues going on for them. Do u think this is possible? I do encourage u to talk to ur t. This disorder is dangerous and can take control of ur life. I find it hard to try and give advice because I am really sick right now; but I do have alot of knowledge and experience with this. Please ask me anything u want; pm or otherwise. I would be more than happy to try and help anyway I can; and many others in here as well. We can all relate with topics of concern. If u feel comfortable please ask away. Take care and I wish u the best. thinking of u.
justy

[nervousnellie]

Thanks for your reply and encouragment Justy.

I will be in touch!!

Be Well!!
NN



"This too shall pass"